.: Sien :.

I wanna grow mushroom liao....... maybe become spidergirl coz I got all webbed up and perhaps will be biten by any strange kind of spider......zzZZZzzzz. Any suggestion how to spend free time?

.: You'll miss my "Stepping" alryte~~~ :.

Out today for a movie with pals -- Wendy, Zoe, Daniel, YinChew, SoonFeei, KingKo...We watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith. I have to say it's WHOA!! WHOAAAAA!! WHOOOOAAAA!!!! I mean, despite the fact that you drool over Mr.Brad for his charms and sexuality( so appealing!!!), I drooled over Ms.Angelina for her beauty, provocative , lustious and sexy appeal too. She's just so stunning, ya know. I always like her.... a bit of evilish here and there.. NICE!

Anywayz we had fun watching the movie. Laughed alot. It was terribly cold though. I was freezing as I sat at the other end of the row, I could feel the wind was blowing right to my body. My fingers felt numb when it finally finished. And god knows how many times I shiver because of goose bumps. Whoa.. it was killing.

After that, planned to go sing Karaoke but they wanted to get home earlier to pack things for a trip to Redang tonight. Nice one. So okay we suggested to go another time, certainly it's after they're back from the trip. So to everyone who joins in the trip, have a great time there, enjoy the sun shine enjoy the crystal clear ocean. Breathe the air for me ya. haha! Becareful also. To Zoe babe I wish you'll get well soon. *Love yaz*

And oh.. erm.. Daniel always seems to be the one who's been bullied all the time. By whom? By ..... afew of us hahahahaha. But hey, not everyone has the chance oo and look at you, You ENJOY it! I know it got sour and painful at times, but WE DO LOVE YOU. You'll miss all our teasings. I can tell, as I will miss urs too. So, yeah keep the charm, stay cool, stay handsome. *wink*

I' continue my Kill Bill2. Kick ass!

.: An End, A Beginning :.

Yoohooo~~~ Allow me to cheer for a while. I'm graduated! Final exam is over and I'm free like a bird~~~~~ (nah, dont remind me of looking for a job now, as I just emailed to a friend and my interview date will be arranged soon!) NOW, MY MOVIES!! I'M COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So the last 3 papers have come to an end... Life for studying has ended. Gonna have a short break before another journey of life. I really wonder how would it be. No matter how, I'll do my best. It's how I wanna make my life right now.

Happy. happy. happy.

Oh yeah, met Eugene aka Jetyr in APIIT today. Nice meeting ya. Take care. And enjoy the cruelty of APIIT mwahahahhahahahaha!!!!

.: I’M-HOLIER-THAN-THOU BLOGGER’S BATON :.

Another tag..... grrriirrr.. and this time is even more fun (ya ryte~). I got tagged by two friends : Dan and Eugene

OK here it goes:

1. The last blog I read was: Joo's "Don't Worry Be Happy"

2. I think my blog is way better than the blog above because: ...... I dont think so. Hmm if wanna compare.... OK my blog is more to my life e.g. what's up with my life right now, for everyone who's close or not close with me i.e. those in oversea studying and working and those who havent seen me for quite a long time. My blog is to keep them aware and know what's happening in my life right now.

3. In my honest opinion the best entry I have every blogged is: .: Sh*t Luck Go Away :. hahahha because look at my comments!!! It hits over 30 a night!! Hahahaa. And well I've got flames sparking around on that night and I can see the biggest flamers were having much fun -- I think it did help release some real life pressure there. Just scold whoever you dont really know. And the scolding and insults went "cheaper" and "cheaper". LOLZ.

4. 5 Blogs I read that may be better than mine:
Daniel -- Loaded with funny stuffs and pics. Nice layout. Compact.
Jetyr -- Simple, straight forward, nice.
Wimal -- Funny, fun to read.
Jenny (my mui mui) -- Always a heart-touched whenever I read her blog. Real.

5. I know my readers are addicted to my blog because: I dont ACTUALLY think so coz I dont update it quite often.And... I'm not funny enough...I'm not bitchy enough .. I'm not opened enough to quite alot of things. Because.... maybe I still think this is a public place so.. something is still better to be kept private. Haha. That is why I said the above mentioned blogger's blogs are way better than mine.


OK... finished. MY TURN!!!! nyet nyet.. see who I can pass the baton to:
Derrick
Jenn
Dennis
Joo
.............. I;'ve been tagged by two persons, so lucky I was, which made me cannot pass to either one of them now..... NVM. I guess that's it. Sorry gals and guys, gotta do this >.<"" !!!

.: *RIP* Love Always -- Fishy :.

My dad found out that his MOST beloved goldfish died in the aquarium this morning (08.06.2005 morning). He told mom about it.. Both of them were sad and heartache. He's been with us for 1 year. He was so huge now....... and tamed.

My dad told me in the afternoon when we were heading to bank. "1 year already, Wei." He sounded sad. He sighed. I've never seen my dad felt that sad -- well he was totally sad when my grandma passed away 7 years ago. Nothing else had really got him into so low. I felt sad seeing my dad sad. And I know how much he loved his pet.

It happened to be he was killed by his own species - a young, untamed, naughty, new family. He was hurt. He was in pain that he couldnt eat. And my mom said he died because of few days didnt eat. She's regret that they didnt separate him and medicate him.

I helped my dad finding a good container ... I suggested to bury him in the garden but my dad was clear-headed, he said he may got rotten and the worms may damage the plants we have in the garden. So we found a plastic container and put him inside. I didnt see where my dad put him...... Well, dad said he's gotta buy a new one this weekend. He maybe sad, but he isn't discouraged. That's my dad --- always a brave, loving, warm-hearted and cheerful man.

I think I'll follow him to the petshop this weekend. :)

.: Music Baton :.

I..... have been tagged by Daniel (ggrrrrrr.... it's quite fun though) Here I go.

Total volume of music files in my computer: 3.8GB of MP3s and 1.08GB of MTVs

The last CD I bought: I... cant remember. I think it's LP's [Reanimation] (whoa that's darn long time ago!!!!)

Song playing right now: None. Not quite in the mood yet.

Five songs that I listen alot and mean alot:
1. Evenenscence - My Immortal: the 1st song that made me cry over it without any reason. JUST SAD.

2. Linkin Park & Jay Z - Numb/Encore: COOL, COOL, COOL!

3. Leo Ku - Midley ( Geng Ko Kam Kuk): Simply marvelous but long winded. A collection of nice songs in one.

4. Ah Sang - Ye Zi (Leaf): the other song that made me cry... A very quiet song. Nice.

5. Akon - Lonely: I like the "chipmunks" voice. Very cute.

Okay time to be evil....
Five people to whom I pass the baton to:

Wimal
Jenn
Chew
Derrick
Dennis

Enjoy~~!!!

.: Finally...... :.

Everybody, everyone, finally, I AM GRADUATING SOON!!!! Wow.. can't believe this day is arriving. Nice feeling, just abit not used to it as there will be no more assignment!! (DUH!!!!!) Well I know, more society academic assignments, I can sense it (Started to play Star Wars JEDI Knight lately so... Hehe) . Anywayz, byebye study in institute, hello to the institute of society.

I still remember the 1st day I stepped into APIIT KL. I didnt know anyone, the first person I approached were a few Indian girls, befriended them..... then, I knew Jenny, who's my beloved sis now... and I eventually got more and more friends. Wendy, Shay Ker, Jenn and I were the noisiest girls in the class, I guess. I still can remember Ker's laughter. Wendy... now only I realized this small girl got a large voice!!!! And man.. she can REALLY talk!! Then I got to know Daniel, Eric, Derrick, Chang Chew... these few guys been hanging out with us so we were like 8-10 ppl in a gang most of the time. Imagine the noise. But it was fun.

A year passed by... Some left to a better place to continue their study or work. But still we had fun during higher dip.. and remember those who played game overnight and slept in the class.. lolz. But still, last-minute-enterprise still worked.

Now, the closest we got are Daniel, Wendy and I. And we got to know some new friends - Zoe, Chew, Chao Learn, KingKO, Soon Feei, etc. Yoong and Min Yin are with us too. Then this time as there are few more jokers around, we really had a fun time laughing. And of course, we struggled alot for FYP.. All shared the worries and encouraged each other. Especially during MidPoint meeting, and FYP Final Presentation. We even got mental support haha. Nice moments. And I believe in the working world there wont be any pure hearts as what I'm having now. So... :) Cheerz. And be brave to the challenges outside.

Today is my daddy's birthday. Happy Birthday DAD. My aunt and family is here. SO her lil' baby girl Crystal is here... cute, lovely, spoiled baby. Hehe. Cant wait for her to grow up.
And as for my dad, I wish for you to be healthy always, happy, cheerful, charming as you always are. Love you. *hugz*

.: New month new Beginning :.

May is gone, at last. Lots of things happened in May. Just hope this month is slowly turning everyone's luck to be better. Happy ones continue to be happy; Sad ones throw away the sadness and become happy again; Angry one be forgiven and move on with life; Wrong ones learn from mistakes and forgive ownself and also, move on with life. Life is aint just about these my buddies. Life with this add-on to some spice though.

.: Sh*t Luck Go Away :.

Nothing really special happening in my life right now, at least, happy ones are not happening. Perhaps last week I stepped onto dog sh*t or cat sh*t or crow sh*t or whatever sh*t it is, luck wasnt been good and God wasnt been kind to people that I care.

Conflict happened a week ago between me and my friend. Over what you'd ask. Over a game. Yes, silly eh? But maybe we devoted too much onto a game that sometimes things that we do hurt the other party. I'm so sorry if I did anything that hurt all my virtual friend( Some have become real life friends now). But I truly hold on to a principle that is you think before you speak/act. And I try to work it in my life. This is what adults do, right? Words that are spoken out of anger cant be taken seriously, BUT how much hurt it brought to the listener, you can't tell when you're angry. Would it be too late when you finally reliaze? You can't tell either. That is why I'd rather keep quiet and think and not say anything when I'm angry because I dont want to hurt anyone when I dont mean it. I speak out, but not using the anger words. Now that it is settled, is it totally settled? I dont know. We talked. Somehow now we dont talk like how we used to. Of course I miss those times. And sadly it involved my love one who cares and wanted to do something for me, ended up he got the sh*t on himself. I hate being in this difficult situation where both sides are people whom you really care. Things got complicated when your friends know about it. And people who dont know what the heck is really going on started to guess and think it is the way they think it is. Another lesson: Listen to both side's story before you make any judgement. Anything that is not clear and you want to know about it, stand up front and ASK. Gain a friend or a foe, you choose.

If I dont give a damn to anyone I wouldn't post this here. Why should I if I dont care? I learned something extended though. Words are really this powerful that it can either make you feel like in could 9 or make you feel so sh*tty as if you're worthless. Just, to everyone that I know, and knows me, take this to your heart: Think before you speak/act.

p/s: Just a piece of thought.

.: Happy Birthday To Me :.

~* Happy 25th Birthday *~

I kinda got a confused feeling about my birthday. Can't believe that I'm 25 y/o. I remembered I had once imagined what I'd be doing at 25 --- working. But now am still doing my last semester, well soon graduate though. Hehehe. And... I can't help it, the word "old" is slowly crawling towards me (hopefully it's not obvious on my face, YET) ... but Age is Just a # eh?

Thanks to all my babes and buddies who wished me on the day, and days before today. LOL. Somehow got a few of them remember my birthday wrongly. haha. But, early wishes are still GREAT!

Thanks to Daniel, Wendy, Zoe, Chew, KingKo, Kwong, MinYin, Dennis, Derrick, my lovely sweet sis Jenn and her sweetheart Ted and all the friends (in case I forgot to name them here) for wishing me "Happy Birthday". I'm really happy that some I dont even expect them to know but I got their wishes, thanks alot!

Thanks to RO buddies - Henzz who called me right after 12am midnight; He indeed gave me a surprise. Thanks Stitch for your SMS. And all the pals who left message on my MSN, I saw them this morning and wow, it felt great and it's certainly a terrific way to start my day.

Thanks to dear Anjo for your card and presents. They are sweet and valuable, and meaningful to me. I'll keep them well, I promise. *smooch* *smooch*

And lastly, thank you dad and mom for making my day a GREAT day. I got my dad's SMS this morning "Happy Birthday Dear" ..... very touching *sob*. And my mom bought me a cake without even letting me know! *kizz and huggiez*

~** Birthday Wishes **~

I wish for peace, safe, happy and healthy life for everyone I know. And I'm gonna start my working life soon, so LIFE IS JUST ABOUT TO BEGIN. I wish my love one will always be happy, for me will treasure and cherish you for as long as I live. Simple --- as it should be.

.: Should I or should not? :.

Dear all,
Sorry for the late late late update. Been quite lazy lately and been tied up by another project, again. Somehow it gets all lazy again when the most important thing is over. Yeah I'm talking about FYP being the most important thing. So the 1st modular project is handed up. Settled. Now there are another 2 projects. Documentation again - words, words and more words. *bumper*

About the headline - I was thinking to get a braise for my teeth. Though for all the times I take it as my trademark - you know, the two vampire teeth on the top row. Wendy said :"Dont! You'll be regret."; Daniel said :"But you'll look prettier after you are over it!"; Wendy said :" You cant french kiss for 2 years, babe." ...ggrrriiirrrr... It aint about the french kiss that holds my mind. But well it's about the charges and my working days are soon to be started. How well can I speak with a braise..... I am not sure but Wendy said it's kinda hard..Hard to sleep at night at first.. hard to eat...And will I be smiling "CHEEZE" with a braise? But quite alot of people do say I dont need it. So.... what do u all think?

.: Finally, life for FYP is over :.

Finally, I went for the presentation this morning at 9am. It didnt turn out to be a good news for me at first when I knew I am scheduled for today's morning. But think twice, it's actually a good thing, as I will have more time to set up my PC before presentation.

It was quite tension for me because the most worried is if the program doesn't work when you present it. And it happened!! WTH! Luckily both of my advisor and supervisor didnt sentence me a dead sentence when it couldnt work out perfectly. My advisor had alot of things to say.... mostly are saying my system is not very good.. and my supervisor didnt back me up. I wonder why... for all the friends who presented, their supervisor backed them up. But mine ..... haizz..... Never mind, I argued it myself ! Pif ! So just when I thought I'm just gonna be graded a so-so grade, at last my advisor said everything is good. Analysis is good, documentation of provess development is good. Hmm... really hope that I will do well.... =.= "" ...

OK, one main thing is done. Another 3 projects are awaiting..... help~~~~... Getting lazy @.@ hahahaha OK am out. Have a nice day everyone.

.: More and more reading :.

Reading is always not my thing since... well maybe can say it's not a culture in my growing environment as I wasnt taught to have a habit of reading since I was small. And I didnt start this habit when I went schooling. So I ended up a barely read kind of person. Hmm I did read,Megazine.. those trendy megazine that teaches you nothing more than fashion and make up and ... basically how to become an attractive female. (Yeah, I think that's the point of publishing those megazines to keep all the females up-to-date on what to wear, what to say, where to hang out, what to buy, how you behave etc *deep breath*) I'm quite a sucker for those last time becoz the information they provided is really compact! But... I wonder why I dont read them anymore? Spending most of my time in front of the PC should be the MAJOR cause.

As approaching the final semester.. I should say as studying the final year of the degree course, reading has become essential because we need to find information and knowledge in order to do our projects/assignments, which involved alot of reading! *bumper!* Sometimes I feel really lazy to read, but if I make up my mind for that, actually it does give me something I didnt know. It feels kinda nice. Hmm... I guess I would like reading if I start it now? zzZZZzzzzz....

There's something needed to be settled but needs alot of time ... Human and human communication is the hardest thing in the world. Don't you all agree? A slight misunderstanding may cause such a huge change in friendship. And if one of the parties is not into bringing it out and talk about it, it becomes real hard for the other party who wishes to clear the clouds. But maybe I just have to accept the fact that sometimes thing just had to be the way it is, for the sake of both.

OK.. jae off. Have a nice day everyone.

.: SING~~~~ till your lung drop :.

I'd been to Red Box with couple of friends on Thursday: Daniel, Wendy, Louise, Kingko, Yin Chew and Chao Learn came abit later. We basically started singing from 3-8pm..... 5 hours?!?!?! Wow now only that I realized. People say shop till you drop, I would say we sang till our lungs dropped. Really hard to imagine. Kingko has a good voice, and he knows alot of songs! Bravo. I sang till I almost lost my voice and the last thing I wanted to do when it was time to go home is to talk. It got better when I reached home.

I rarely went to karaoke last time, but once I joined Wendy once, I guess I've had interest in abusing people's ears hahahahaa. And guess what, I learn most of the new Cantonese/mandarin songs from karaoke. Thanks to Wendy and Zoe who chose songs that I dont know, and they had a great time there singing and me .... what could I do? Being a background supporter. NEVER MIND! I learn! And before they knew it, I could grab the mic over, open my mouth and sing (To keep the mic with ya, you gotta know the song sista!).... nyek nyek nyek. This is how I learn. And they will swing around the mic and say "Jae, go learn this song! Next time we sing together!" SO SWEET!!! Hahahahaha!!

It's pretty tiring to sing karaoke. I wonder why, merely singing. And it can work out your abs muscle, BELIEVE ME. Hehehe I think those who do sing in the karaoke know about this? Or just me being strange? Weirdo. Erm...Ya, it's tiring. But it feels nice hehehe a form of pressure release hahahaaha. And I found that singing Cantonese/Mandarin songs is way better and easier than singing English songs. I dont know why. It's like the Cantonese/Mandarin songs are created specially for karaoke. haha.

OK. Me off for now. Anyone wanna join us in the next karaoke session? Leave name. Ciaoz~

.: The day is coming :.

Got to know that my FYP presentation is schedule on the next Friday, 15/4/2005. Anxious, nervous -- which I'm not supposed to feel as I'd finished the work. But I need to bring my baby unit to present as all the software is installed into my uni already. Wish me luck *wink*

Lately I got to know that my coursemate Wimal has made a blog for himself. Quite an interesting one. I have a good time reading in his blog as his posting is funny hahaha. Good job Wimal.

Oh ya, about my hair cut. I cant really change any hair style I think. I got big round face so too short is not the best for me; Too long will make me look old. I have to keep them at a certain length above my shoulder -- but all the time a new hair cut makes me look like a teenanger.. Hahhaa which means YOUNGER. Muahahahaha! Not bad eh? nyek nyek.

I love and hate the class on Tuesday. Love it is because it finishes up early and I have the whole day ahead for myself; Hate it is ..... certainly is because I have to get up early that I missed the best time to sleep. Ish! Mom needed to go to the market so I gotta wait for her to come back and drive me to college......and that is why am typing away HERE!!!

OK, stop here. Will write more soon. Happy Tuesday everyone.

.: It happens again :.

On the midnight of 29th March 2005 ( I hope i got the date right ), when I was about to go to bed I felt an uneasy feeling about my chair and I felt dizzy after that. Then my bro was back from outside and we chatted a little, I saw a MSN message popped up on his screen and it was from my friend too with the message "Earth quake again!!!". And I got the same message right after that. She's from Penang. Then I realized the reason why I felt the strange move about my chair just not long ago. Was I being sensitive? I posted message to my friend who's in Melacca and he said he felt it too. I sent SMS to my cousin who's in Penang to ask if his family was okay over there, but there ain't any reply, I assumed he was already asleep as he's basically a busy man in the day. I prayed hard I'll get his reply as soon as possible.

The first thought on my mind was "Oh no... where again?" Would it be like the last time? Would the tsunami strike again and affect to Malay Peninsula like last time? I told my friend in Penang to make calls to her friends and relatives who's in Penang to not sleep too deadly, just in case there's another tsunami happens again. And I began to think the homes that are just rebuilt in Indonesia since the last tsunami, and the people who are not yet recovered fully from the last disaster, would they be able to take this strike again?

I went to bed worrying if there's another tsunami which would or would not come to Malay Peninsula.... I worried about my friend and relative in Penang. I woke up in the next morning and I checked the news in cnn.com . Yes there was an earthquake happened in Sumatera and it's rated 8.5. A scary one. I got my cousin's reply in the morning saying he's alright. And my friend in Penang sent me a SMS to tell me she's there is fine too. When I got home in the afternoon, as I was sitting on my computer chair doing some stuff, I felt the shake again. This time was even worse than the night before. My chair moved forward, backward and forward as if there's a force pushing from behind. Awkward! It has never moved like that before, I thought it was because of strong wind as my fan volume was 4. But I on the fan to volume 4 everytime so it is impossible. I walked out and asked my mom if she felt anything. She said yes, her chair moved too and the glass door beside her shook too. She thought it was because of strong wind as well. Then my only feeling was "Oh no... another time. This time is even worse. How are the people in Banda Aceh..." The feeling was so bad because you know earthquake wont start in Malaysia as we all learned in Geography during secondary school, but if we can feel it here, wouldn't it be serious in the happening place? But we can't do anything except giving donation afterwards. It felt lousy.

Well, I just pray that the people there will be fine. Helps and assists are continuously given to them. As for all of us here, really gotta learn to treasure the people around you because you dont know when you will lose them. And treasure everything that you're having now - comfortable home, undisturbed sleep, full meal, laughters and love. And be happy for what you've got now. PEACE.

.: Life after FYP :.

It's kinda relax...I'm getting lazier already although there are still 3 projects awaiting. I wonder if I can do them well.. all about business and there's one about network design. And I found that it's quite boring lately... Oh ya, I finally have some time to sit down quietly and watch TV without thinking the head-hammering problems which I need to solve regarding of my FYP. A very nice feeling haha.

It's time too for me to earn some money. I've contacted my ex-colleague and got to have some part time job. Not bad, at least can earn some extra pocket money to buy things, and to save for a trip after finishing the course.

Life is still the same, games that I play, people that I know, things around me. I'm getting tired very easily lately I wonder why.. Is this sign of aging? hahahahah I seriously hope not. I know I need a proper rest else I'll really look terrible. Other than this, I can have some fun playing game that I've hooked up to a long time ago. Get to know more people, also get to settle some communication problems, attitude problems etc. And guess what, I have topics to chat with my brother and we discuss things/problems about the people we know in the game too. It's not bad as long as we have something in common. At least I still know my brother's thinking and the way he solves troubles is still a correct one. I just give him some wise thoughts from time to time.

And I got to spend some time with family too. Chat with them -- which I've seldom done it for the past 5 months, at least. It feels nice, really nice.

.: This is the day :.

Today is the day I have to think is there anything else that I haven't do for my project. Because tomorrow is the submission day. I must admit that I'm darn a very clumsy person because I got some minor mistakes in my documentation that I overlooked but I already got them printed. Haha, but they are alright. I hope.

AT LAST!!!!!! Somehow I got lazy when the project period is so long. Like... I'll sometimes feel lazy and think, nah, I can still do it later/tomorrow. Then I'll get all so nervous and panic when find out something which is BIG and needed to be solved IMMEDIATELY! ( else I can't eat and sleep that night ) Though that thing can be solved a bit later, not such a urgent. I'm glad I started developing the system 3 months back. I still have time to debug and do coding for the parts which is not perfect when the due is like 3 days later. Of course my documentation is started about 2 weeks before the submission date. So I spend 1-2 days to finish 1 chapter of the entire report.

Overall I think I'd done it okay. I cant say perfect because I know there're flaws in the system. But that's all I can do with my ability. And before you can think of something else, hey, I know how to program into a Palm OS. Hahahaa, I can say that proudly. And, hey, I know how to make my Palm OS to coomunicate with my desktop.... hahaha though that's where the flaws are but.. Well I'd done my best so I have nothing to regret at all ( Mr.WIlliam Hung said that, it's very true indeed)

Other than that, maybe I dont know how to separate work and entertainment. I'd lost quite a lot of quality time I should have with family and friends. I'd lost touch with some fun/important happenings around the world. I even didnt know there's nice eating place around my area. I really need to do something about it.

Apart frm the final year project, I certainly need to do other subjects well in order me to score in the final year, as FYP is not the main thing to decide whether you'll get a first class or not( I seriously hope that ahahahah). It's been long since my last update. I always post pics as you all can see. I hope this pieace can tell you all how I am lately.... I feel extremely tired today. Maybe this is the after-tension-release-syndrome. Hehehehe.

Hehe our honeymoon after the wedding... the place is called Jawaii, only for couples oo ! Let's explore..

Nice place eh?? hehehe so I quickly snap one too.. aren't we lovely? nyek nyek..