Monday, February 23, 2009

.: Consequence of stubborness..... yet awesomeness! :.

Went to CK's house on the 13th day of CNY when he was having an open house party.. It was basically a home arcade centre --- Living room is a big Nintendo Wii wonderland and dry kitchen has become a PS2 xtreme land. And there was a setup bar serving some awesome drinks- different kinds. Made full use of his house. =P

So I was drowning in the xtreme land as the Dance Party is in the house. Did 118 combo ( an entire song!) Yes.. very cool.. And hmmm, a bit of pain at the ankles. No worry! Oh wow next song, here I go! After few hours later, I guess I'd burnt much calorie for a day, perspired and tired so I finally take a longer break. With more alcohol down the stomach! Only then I realized hey everyone seemed to go home already. My ankles, didn't feel right. But I was too tired to even care... Left the arcade centre 10 past 8.

Soon after that, heard that KL marathon is coming. I didnt participate last year so this year I wanted to do something "great". Half marathon is really something great for me -- cause I've never taken a serious one in my life. Very excitingly I gotten my new New Balance running shoes!
Very nice! very good in running. Alot of room @ the front part, you can play piano with your toes inside while wearing them (imagining?). So I began my morning jog just around my neighborhood. The only drawback I have is the smokes from cars and school buses - unless I get up REALLY early, say like 6am and start running? But most of the time I only kicked myself out of bed near 6:30am --- that's when I REALLY want to jog.

And, my ankles did feel abit not right. But I thought it's small matter, so, shrugged and keep jogging. Felt nice after a morning jog - So refresh! Didnt care much on the little torn feeling at my ankles, still. So, I went to driving range, did long-hour shopping in heels, jog, etc. And never really care to take a serious look at my ankles.

Not long after that, just past weekend, I've gotten my dance shoes!!!
Aren't they pretty? Without wearing them I'm already imagining I dance like pro. Hmm, sexy. Give it a right turn, and a left! And back break! Mambo ....... and yes I attended the 6th class of Beginner Class. Pretty much a dancer already (I see you roll your eyes ....:P ) . Abbie warned me not to attend the class when I mentioned to her about my ankles. CK wanted to fetch me to seek medication. "I couldnt afford to miss a class!" So, stoned head went and made her fabulous turns and steppings. Felt good after class, didnt feel right on the left ankle. We still visited CK at his house, had a slice of his out of oven banana walnut cake..... Yummy... :) Forgot about the pain, I played hoolla hoop at night!

So this morning when I got down from my bed, I couldnt step fully on my left ankle. "Oh shit.." Already knew what Abbie & CK would say so I'll just wore my armor and carried my shield to let them hammer me with their sarcastic tongues. CK still brought me to seek medication during lunch hour.... like a guard he asked more questions than me.

"Rest about 2 weeks ya?"
"Can I er... wear heels for erm, 2 -3 hours, you know, wedding dinner's coming"
"Er.... well I supposed okay.... " Didnt hear what he said after that. "If can, better avoid doing so"
"Can she, you know, attend to her dancing class?"
"Huh? Dancing class? Ballroom dance is it? Well er... well you caaaaaaaaaannnnn" There I didnt hear what he said after that..

"but better don't." CK heard that.
"Anything she can't eat?"
"I'll give you a list later, dont worry". Si fu is very busy rubbing my left ankle, and keeping his eyes at my face, reading my facial expression as if he's not rubbing hard enough. (felt like crying already)

"Aww it's not that bad! I maybe already recover on Friday!" For once, something that I have passion on, and now somebody tells me I cant do it! Like a kid I bargain.

But.. well, that's what happened when you didnt seek treatment early enough. But no regrets at all because the 6th class was JUST TOO AWESOME!!!

Well, not that bad after all eh? Don't ask how I shower though. =P

Saturday, February 21, 2009

.: Lucky :.

I'd met 2 wonderful person about 2 months back. So eagerly I want you all to know how lucky I am. =)

She, has such a clear, crunchy voice, sometimes way too cute that makes me laugh. Eyes turned when she walks by because of her wonderful charisma. She has these lovely eyes that took all that attention when she talks. Very idealistic lady, strong character and very infectious! She's spoiled to the rotten but she too spoils the people around, it just makes her friends want to cuddle up with her when see her. Not to mention she's so full of energy at work, protecting and pay full respect to her peer colleagues as well as bosses. POSITIVE vibe--- best to describe her, period.

He, who has a constant confidence aura around him from head to toe. Quiet most of the time, but don't get him to start talking. (Didnt mean you're naggy hehe) Rationality is the word to describe, not the best though. Seek moderation in most of the things he does. Full of respect to the people around him. Persistent on the things he WANTS to do, and enjoy every little reward from them, be it big or small. I wouldn't describe him as ambitious, but he grabs hold of every opportunity that comes along which benefits not only himself but the people he cares about. He never take people for granted cause of what he has been through. CONSCIOUSNESS --- amazing and strong character he posses.

Didn't even imagine how I'd be picked up by their mercy hands and being nurtured with every single effort they can think of.

Just as life gets to the lowest point -- Her care and constant attention kept me closely with her. She pulled me back when I withdrew, even a slight one. She shed the tears on my face, heard me when I called out to her even in the middle of the night. And then her piercing words never stop penetrates my heart with cruel facts which intended to slap me to my senses. He taught me to again find interest in myself, and start to value my own values and opinion first. He let me just go explore my preferences, to know my ownself again as I've been forgetting who I was in the past 2 years. He let me feel the joy from doing the things I like to do, which is supposed to build confidence in myself again believing I am actually not bad, after all.

Their advices all sounded familiar as series are using them on TV all the time... But I haven't heard them the way I should at first. Not until lately, things started to be clearer. Acceptance of what had happened is something really not easy. But I'd learned to do that. To forget should be my next step and move on. I move slow, they wait. She may stop at my pace and take a break with me. He gives me some small rewards if I get few steps forward.

Just how wonderful the connection could be. People around you whom you may not even realize how they truly value your existence, when you're in deep shit. It just proves 1 thing - Life surprises you when you least expected it.

A friendship like this, I'd never in my wildest dream ever imagined. Words unspoken but understood with the exchange of some smiles and actions. I guess I'm not actually losing at the stake of life, but I gained a whole lot more if not for what I'd been through.

Chun Keat , Abbie - my 2 angels ....... and devils :)

.: Story - last episode :.

................ the past 2 months of a life journey seems to be a life time. I fell, I crawled, I'm on my feet again now, getting ready to step out to embrace again what a life that I'd once abandoned.

Nothing beats the shock given from the one who means the world to you.
Nothing beats the cut from the one who you thought is the safest to rely on.

There, some story that I started... I have idea to write again, and end it.

"Sailor decided to sail out to seek for more adventures, alone. Pushing her back to her land. Trembling on shocking knees, he is all she saw behind closed eyes. Weather changed, green hills become fields of mud, birds stop chirping, the sun hid from her glare. Flood in her eyes it drowned every single heart beat. Music on the ship was still playing in her ears as she watched the ship set sail further... She, however, rooted on the ground.

Exhaling her last breath, she closed and opened her eyes. Nothing's left around her. No more blooming daisies, no more crystal clear river water. All she sees in is in gray. No mercy on the pain she feels on every inch of her skin, no passion on any melody she heard from nearby town.
Her stomach is growling but she tastes no food. Her lips are cracking but no dew drops she could swallow. She sent her voice to the sailor. Saying everything they had for him to turn back. But the ocean fetched him further by his order, tossed the old self away he now breathes new. Greedily he moves forward, sucking every familiar essence from the breeze he had once felt.

Leaving her with herself licking her own wound. A once possessive woman now left nothing to call as her own. Fairies come by to blemish the scars that she got. Angels stayed put to make sure she recovered.

It was never meant for an earth divine to fall for a sailor. She went against the destiny , changing her living to adapt a life with him. Rode the waves, sang the songs, dimmed the lights. When the journey ended, it's tragic to accept the reality. When everything has come to an end, the end will then have a new beginning.

Wonder how many days later... her cheeks once again felt the warm from the sun that has long gone. "

Thursday, February 05, 2009

.: Yes, if I were... :.

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone

I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy