.: Troubled , and Pleasure... :.

I wonder is all the supervisor/ manager the same in the world? Seem to have all the flexibility but deep down he/she is just a CONTROL FREAK! What could gone out of control when everyone there basically is ADULT? Can't take up resposibility or initiative to find out the way of doing things and those who make the 1st move will actually be "adviced" ? Or it's just the working world politics that rule the thing? Kind of frustrated sometimes .. maybe I'm still "young" in the working world so must "langgar" (bang) alot of "wall" or "board" or "pan" whatever you wanna call it before I learn when and how and where to take action, or even make a word? sigh...

^ The above writing was made weeks ago. I was kinda frustrated so couldn't wait to just vend everything here. Luckily I didnt get to finish on that day else I'm gonna scold more and more and more and finally get out of control forgetting this is a public blog.

***********************************SO it has passed..****************************************

Now, I'm just back from Genting Highland 2 days ago. I went with my love one. Spent 2 days there walking and playing. Oh, and we got to watch a magic show called Mysteria. The show was quite okay. Impressive costume and dancing. And the tiger! Got the ordinary brown color tiger and WHITE TIGER, 2 very beautiful animals. Hmm maybe I sat too near, my seat was the first line of the seating so I was like, 2 feet from the stage, so the magic thing seemed .... okay for me. Not a whoo-wah! thingy. BUT, the stunt presented by bunch of chinese girls ( from CHina) is impressive! Their light-weight jump and excellent accuracy must be praised. I gave them my loudest and highest applause and I really respect them. Imagine they having a difficult life compared with what I'm doing. Wow I feel so small suddenly. Hehehe..

************************************The American Idol************************************

Who keeps track with it like I do? I love watching it this time. It's got several good singers, I'm just afraid that they choose a wrong song that leads them to elimination. My favourite are still Chris Daughtry and Elliot Yamin. I wouldn't worry about Chris because he got such a voice that no matter what song he sings, it's just gonna be a good one ( Maaaaaaaaaaaybe, like Randy said, he should go for a different type of style next time, Chris ROCKS!!!!! yes we all know you can rock Chris, please show more versatility). Elliot, however, everytime he sings I'm gonna terrified with the song he chose. I just dont wish to see him got eliminated because of wrong song choice. We all know he can sing~ C'mon! Last week he was good! When he opened his mouth I know this is another version of "I dont wanna be" which Bo Bice sang in the last American Idol. A GOOD ONE! I felt so high listening to his perfomance --- he wasn't closed up himself but he went for it! Just let it all out! NICCCCEEE~~~~~~!!!!
My eyes laid on Katherine too, she is marvelous! God-gift voice, lovely and sassy out look, sing efforlessly. I love watching her sings! She can actually smile while singing (can't you notice?) no matter how high or low her pitch is.

******************************************Migrane***********************************************

I got migrane attack last night. Started around 8++pm but because I was so hooked up with gaming I tried to hold it until I finished the game. By that time I just couldn't hold anymore I nearly puke on my keyboard. I went to the washroom straight after the game but nothing came out of my throat. I felt like shit like my head was gonna tear into half. My dad was watching football match and you know how migrane patients get so sick to noise and light. Trying to puke but nothing's out I told my mom I was just gonna hit the sack, no dinner for me, I just couldn't wait to lay down on my bed in a dark room. In my room, now my brother wanted to get a shower (we share the same washroom). Noise continued to poke into my eardrum and my head felt like tearing into half piece by piece. Man, I thought it was because of too much of roller coaster ride, but ..... well I just told myself over and over again that "I'm gonna be alright" until I fell asleep. I wanted to get some pill but I wanted to fight it without pain killers. I can't rely on pain killers all the time right? I dont want to. Finally I 'pain' to sleep and it was over around 2.30am (I woke up that time and felt no pain anymore). What a night......

.: American Idol :.

Christ Daughtry - I just love him!!! His singing is like not enough for me !!My reason to watch American Idol :)


And then Elliot Yamin - Also my reason to watch American Idol ! He just got an amazing voice that I adore much.. :)


And... this .. Ace Young.. got good looks, but just doesnt appeal much to me!! How long do you think he can stay?


Sway... man I like him. He could have melted so many hearts by singing R&B.. why he has to leave?


Kellie Pickler - very cute & very genuine. Just like Simon said she's got the "likability" X-factor hehehehe!


All images are courtesy to AmericanIdol.com. Thanks to imageshack(tm) for free hosting.

.: Oh my God .. did I ...... :.

I got this joke of the day few days back. My brother is the man.. I cant help laughing thinking back the look on his face when he said something such as this :

cK - running down the stairs fast around 9.30 in the morning..."Sei lor!!!!!" (means die lor in manglish , and damn/OMeeGod in English)

My mom and I turned and looked at him...

cK - "I wonder if I had eaten a cocroach last night during sleep! I saw a brown thing at my lower gum when I brushed my teeth!"

Mom - "You should smell like shit if you'd really eaten one" ( somehow I wonder why she's so calm saying things like this)

And then I just laughed and laughed at him because he's just one of a heck a coward towards cocroach, if he'd really eaten one...... I guess he'd be puting in the toilet anytime soon.... And he will never scare of a cocroach EVER AGAIN! HAHAHAHHAHA "What? I'd eaten one before, during sleep somemore! have you?" *blink*

.: Where'd you go :.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

Please come back home...

Another Fort Minor's song ... :)

.: Remember The Name :.

This is 10% luck
20% skill
15% concentrated power of will
5% pleasure
50% pain
and 100% reason to remember the name

I just love them - Fort Minor

.: A Valentine Surprise :.

Never had I ever imagined that I'd have a surprising Valentine's Day night...

I gotta work -- there's no way to escape for that day because my colleage is attending a training for a day so I couldnt take leave. We celebrated it on Sunday and exchanged gifts. He gave me a very special necklace - I had to open the mollusk to get the pearl inside and then sealed it with a pendant, and then I can wear it. :) Ok story continues :)

As usual 9pm I off work and stepped out from the office building. I was abit late because the work load was pretty heavy. My dear was there earlier and waited for me with a bouquet of roses in his hands! I totally didnt know anything about it I just headed straight to my car as I drove to work that day. He hinted me to just take the company bus to work because he planned to pick me up when I'm off. So he called out my name but I was beside the bus so I couldnt hear so clearly. He ran up to me from the back with the roses, imagined there were so many people just standing at the door and said "why didnt you pick up my call?" I looked up and nearly screamed out of suprise! I just stonned and searched for my phone and there were 7 missed calls totally. Well my phone was in silent mode and I couldn't feel the vibration so I didnt know that he called. Then I said "How you came?" CHUP -----> See, it should be "Happy Valentine's Day baby" but it turned out to be "Why didnt you pick up my call?" "How you came?" hahaha!

Wow I was so happy I just stood there and asked how long has he been planning this... And well ended up I drove my car and he drove his car, together-gether we went back my home. And then spent the last 2 hours of Valentine's Day together talking about all his "surprise plan" :)

I have had a very very sweet Valentine's Day... Thanks to my baobei Edwin - I love you.

.: Happy Valentine's Day :.

So fast this day has come....

I hereby wish everybody - with or without Valentine, a happy Valentine's Day !

(Look <----- I got pets!!! Muahahahah!)

.: My Chinese New Year :.

How's your CNY celebration?

Mine is nothing different from any other years - like battling for the 1st-3rd day of CNY. I basically just visited house to house in Seremban, Teluk Intan, and this year, Penang too. Traffic is exceptionally smooth for KL but the North-South highway! And Oh-Mee-God Penang was terribly jammed just about everywhere! Pity those cars that broke down and had to stop aside on the highway, imagine what they had to do to get back their car fixed.... $$ that may costs a bomb, and what's after that? travel back home? continue the journey? So my big advice for the drivers, check the car before going on a long journey with slow traffic because you are at risk of car breaking down, and potentially causing traffic slow, and it's dangerous too to stay at the roadside.

I was sick before CNY so my 1st & 2nd day of CNY were not sooooooo perfect but not so bad too-lah... It's just that I can't eat what I want hehehe. But it's alright so I wont gain so much weight during CNY hahahaha ( big reason actually!)

And I started work on Thursday. I actually have to work on Wednesday but I took 1 day leave so I still have time to accompany family to visit relatives. When back to work, the CNY mood is still lingering around I just felt so lazy hahah luckily the workload wasn't heavy else.... It ain't feeling good to work while ppl are still enjoying the holidays!!!!!

Weekend was packed - visit friends, catch a movie, pak-toh with boy boy, and the big day for Hokkien people - the 9th day which is the "Bai Ti Gong" day that falls on 6th Feb (Mon). We pray on the night before though after 12 midnight. Lots of preparation and afterwards cleaning but I have to work on Monday so I went to bed earlier. After this day, I guess it's the 15th day of CNY which will have another big praying.

After so many days..... I havent open my money luck!!!! Hell yeah I havent gamble hehehehehe Even visiting the relatives and friends I still haven't "open table" (hoi toi in cantonese). Gggrrrrriiiiirrrrrrr... but ar... well I'm not a big gambler but just want to have the fun of playing. Heheheehe..

Been writing so long and so unorganized, I hope you all can understand what I'm saying because my CNY is basically such unorganized and chaotic. Hope you all have a GREAT Dog year!

.: Five Weird Habits of Myself :.

I got tagged.... again.... =.=

Okie, well done Wimal... well done in making me got something to post here.. and this time WTH is 5 weird habits? Oh my.....

The rules/procedures are as follows:
The first player of this game starts with the topic "five weird habits of yourself," and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and link to their web journals. Don't forget to leave a comment in their blog or journal that says "You are tagged" (assuming they take comments) and tell them to read yours.

1. I wash hands frequently - at least I think it's weird. I can't stand touching something which is not my own and go on for the rest of the day. Nah-ah... I will feel miserable and just want to get my hands washed ASAP. And this is only about THINGS, not PEOPLE ( okie, I know what you're thinking u notty boy/girl)

2. I yawn frequently - I yawn regardless of time, people I'm with as long as I got nothing to do. Not because of tired but I think my brain is seriously lack of Oxigent....

3. Restless - It's worse if I got a good cup of nescafe or stronger coffee ( like I'm getting high or what...) If I know I'm somewhere for a purpose i.e. working, I kinda like can't sit properly when I'm idle - either my feet will move or I'll go massage my arm or finger joints, or I'll just stand up and walk around. Is this a sign of low self-esteem/confidence?

4. Touch my face - erm.. I kinda like to do so becoz ... I don't know. It's actually a very bad habit because I bring dirt to my face through my finger tips which will cause break outs... hmm.. I will have to remind myself not to do it ...

(Man.. I'm really out of idea already...Oh that means I actually dont have much hahahaha)

5. Man.. I really cant think of anymore, I've been dragging this for a long time !!! Spare me with the last habit pls~~ And I cant think of anyone to forward this so... Okie I just expose my weird habits for you all to know.. Oh I know, there's 1 I want to tag... :

Joo

Okie, done!!

.: By Request :.

Seeing Zoe posted message asking me to update only I realized that, yeah it's been a long time.. Hahhaahaha lazy me ... @.@

Nth much really.. just that the working is getting kinda routine - actually it is routine everyday but somehow I wonder is it my performance speed too fast or the work load is really not much.. I spent lots of time sitting on the chair, swing here and there doing nothing; or chit chat with colleague abt her son ( whilst I'll talk abt my youngest cousin sister since I Dont have one of my own ) ... or gossips.. or just drink lots of water so I can walk to the ladies, and spend 4 minutes for each visit...

It is unpredictable though.... I cant tell whether tomorrow is gonna be another free day or reverse. So there's something interesting, hehe!

Other than work... preparing for CNY - gotta clean up my closet as a new one is coming on 21st; buy lots of new clothes coz realizing I've been repeating same clothes; lose a few pounds so it wont be so obvious if I gain a few pounds during CNY (hahaha!)

so.. routine life.... earning a living.... growing in slow pace of how to be a well being... while realizing that my immunity system is dropping due to lack of vege & fruits in daily diet becoz I still get flu when I took a flu injection in the company just abt 1 week ago!! (they should have given me double dose damn it!)

.: Narnia vs King Kong :.

Watched Narnia on Sunday with my dear. It has been a few weeks but the tickets are still hot! We actually wanted to watch it on Saturday but ended up we only got to buy the tickets for Sunday show. Bumper!

A little piece of advice for watching Narnia - Do watch it with a heart of a child. Because it is a children story anyway! The action pack is fabulous - minotorous fighting with sword (or axe?) in their hands; half man half horse (what do u call that?) etc and all of them TALK! The most unforttable for me is the unicorn that Peter rides on and the fire arrow that turns into a flaming phoenix! Beautiful! I agree with Wimal in his posting Movie: The Chronicles of Narnia that the actress who plays the witch is playing it so good. I like the scenary. I've got lots of kids watching in the cinema too but hey, they seem to understand what they're talking abt in the movie. I heard no crying which is one of the reasons I enjoyed the movie. A nice family movie to watch with old folks and children.

Just watched King Kong last night with my family and my 2 cousin sisters Carmen and Candy. It is a LONG movie. Do bring jacket if you're afraid of cold and maybe a small pillow because the first half of the movie is abit boring. I dont mean to condemn the billion dollar production. They are doing very well in bringing the audience into the story about how Ann Darrow is found by the director Carl Denham to star in his movie which nobody wanted to produce because he used to film documentaries, so on and so on till they get on the ship and headed to Skull Island. Okie the rest of the story you watch it yourself. I just want to say that the part where King Kong fights with the dinosaurs is ... speechless and jaw-drop. I nearly clapped when King Kong wins. What an egoistic, majestic and strong creature! They don't call him King Kong for nothing, fellas! He beats the hell out of the dinosaurs brilliantly!!! And I admire the acting of Naomi Watts (Ann Darrow) who, despite of having beautiful blue eyes and very beautiful curly blond hair, very good acting and I like the part where she amuses the King Kong, it's funny. Imagine she had to act by imagination during filming. Or you think they do make an ape's head so she can focused on and act? Of course you cannot forget the one who plays King Kong at the back - Andy Serkis, who played Gollum in The Lord Of The Ring. He brings King Kong alive with excellent work of CGI. a WOW grading!

Heading towards the ending of the film I felt like stop watching it because it is a sad story. I even said it's not a good movie because the ending is just sad. A little girl cried with her hand reaching out to the cinema screen when the film is finished made the scene even more dramatic.

To support the movie is one of the reasons I watched it too. All the hard work worth your RM11 or RM 10. Enjoy the movie!

.: Presents ready! :.

Finished wrapping the presents yesterday. Hmm it's happy wrapping presents, isnt it? Hehehe when you imagine the look on the person opening the present, PRICELESS. Hahah so I guess I can make my family happy for this Xmas.

.: I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!! :.

ggrrrrrrrriiirrrrr..... ok here I go.

Instructions:
State who tagged you;
List who you want your Santa Claus to be (the bearer of the gift);
State the gift you wish to get;
Then invite a few friends to join the tag, and inform them by dropping a comment in their blog.

I got tagged by Wimal.

My Santa Claus: Santa Claus (who else????!!!!)

The gift I wish to get: Get a ride on his sleigh and fly around the world (including North Pole!!!!) and at the end of the trip let me choose 1 gift from his big bag of presents!!!!!! Ho ho ho !!!

Tagging:
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Joo
Daniel
Chew
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Enjoy the merriest season of the year!

.: Christmas coming!! :.

As the year is ending everybody seems to think abit more.. What have I done throughout this year?

Alot of things had happened. Both sad and happy. Apart from graduating and jumped into the working world which made me plan what I want to have within my reach, financial management is a knowledge that I must learn. Feels like a grown up now - a real grown up. Studying life is always a protected one like I said. My family has done enough to give me a good life without worry about anything that I need. When you're out there, no one is backing you up and you just have to practise the attitude you've learned to avoid screwing up your boss that directly screwing back yourself.

I've nothing to complain though ... just wanna share something of what I've been seeing so far.

A big twist has happened this year and I'm glad it happened, at least I'll be glad in the future that it happened. I've been having a distance relationship for 9 months with a guy, Anjo who I havent even met but I decided to break it for the sake of myself, my family and my friends. It's not that it wasn't real, it was so real that I gave in and sank deeply into it. But I ended up missing so much of my life. I would be reluctant to go out on weekend because we can chat online and had our time. I would hope to go home fast when I was dining outside with family because he was waiting for me on the other line to spend time with me. I will imagine how nice if he was here when I saw something nice, ate something delicious, watching movie/listening songs and etc. At last I gave in too to give up the relationship we had. I've been very selfish to hurt someone whom I've loved so much like that. But I'm unable to tell myself how long I can go loving like that. Spiritual love is very great, even greater than I can bear. My family wasn't positive about it but they still gave their best blessing to me. Only sometimes my parents will ask "You should be out there with your friends, spend your time, not here.. dear" ..... Sad? It is the saddest for me to have to end it. Very painful. My friends didnt scold me stupid but supported me for as long as I'm happy, they said. When I told them I had to break it, they told me "I'm happy and glad that you're awake". A friend even said to me "No one can live in a fairy tale forever".

It's over... now... After all I've done to hurt him so much that it has become a pain in me. God still loves me so much that He granted me a guy who loves me with his entire heart. He who'd been keeping his feeling for more than 6 months has finally told me how he felt. A very silly guy who messed up his life with things that he shouldn't have touched and at the final cut he stopped and came up front to confess..... I believe in a Chinese phrase that means if you've done something bad, you will get it someday. I thought I will get it when I'm done hurting a guy who could stand having a spiritual relationship with me... But HE still send Edwin to me. In a way I've got all a girl could ever want - he loves unconditionally and I'm pampered to the utmost that I'll be spoiled to the rotten. I'm more afraid to lose him - guess this is the punishment I get. Can you understand the fear of losing something/someone that you never want to imagine the day to come? Yeah... that fear. Whatever it has become, I'm sure I'm happy and everybody around me especially my family and my closest friends are happy for me too. I'm finding back the balance again and I'm glad I didnt lose it far.

Christmas is coming.... Last Christmas's memory is still in my mind, it will forever be a memory. Now I'm more anticipating to celebrate it with my dear because .... you should be with someone you love on Christmas, right? And be loved in return....... :)

Merry Christmas everyone. :)

4 Dec 2005, my convo at Renaissance Hotel, Kuala Lumpur. This pic was taken before the ceremony started. My parents were on time. And hah the bouquet ain't mine! it's Wendy's.... lol.... More pic to come, waiting for my friends to send them to me.

Taken at the main entrance of the hotel with my darling mommy after the ceremony. It was HOT!!!!

Went back home and took a pic with my new Xmas tree. My mom bought it and my bro decorated it. NICE! Finaly we got a tree after talking about it for few years! Phew...

Funny feeling wearing this at home ......

.: Convo day :.

This Sunday is my convo day... At last.. weird that I dont feel so much excited about it but my parents. They have been asking about it since 2 months back. Heheh but it is understood as I'm the first child that go to the convo. Lots of friends that I've not been seeing since the last paper, I'll see you on the day!

Other than that, nothing really much happening except.... work, work and work. I'm not crazy at work dont worry I reach on time and leave on time as my job doesn't require any OT (sometimes, very rare) . But the working time has taken most of the time of the day off me. I only have 1-2 hours to relax and do things I like at night before I go to bed. But well, it's alright. I have extra 1 hour to hang out in the morning to help out chores or do something like this, writing blog. Hehehe. Everything is quite good, not much of complaints. Learning the trick of working and seeing the truth of society everyday. Study world is always a protected space, you know. Working is kinda confusing sometimes because you're hoping for some place better , or to move up, or to move away only because you wanna see the number doubled in your account. We are chasing for something better everyday. But do stay on the ground and be glad that you breathe every single day because there are alot of people who beg for living but not granted. :)
Argh.... long winded :) So I hope you all have a great day today. I miss you all.

.: A nice song to share :.

"Because Of You" - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Love on first sight - I fall in love with this song the moment I heard it. The MTV is talking about Kelly having a sad family background which she never want that to repeat on herself in her latter age. The lyric is painful. I thought it is a typical love song because of the title "Because Of You". Lolz. Those who havent heard of it, give it a try. :)

Mood at the moment : So-so
Song at the moment: Ke You Lun - "Ku Xiao Bu De"