.: Some updates :.

I know that this is gonna be a very long entry.. As there is something I need to tell my friends who's been frequently visiting to my blog..

Ended with my relationship 2-3 weeks ago. I know now opening it up seems to be obscene even maybe offensive to somebody but I guess it's the phase of life I've gotta face. And this is phase of life that I've gone through. And so I would like you, my friend, to know about it.

It's not easy. I'm not gonna bitch about how hard I felt though yeah I lost a few kgs through a weekend becoz of gastric reacting as I lost appetite to eat. I gave up the relationship becoz I found out there're things which we cant see eye to eye at. There is something I cant find the bonding with. there is something we dont have in common.... Age is.. something.. Always there is something to me. I'd bluffed myself that we can get over it as time goes by. And so as time goes by, finally I found out I just cant get over it. And thus I hurt him directly unintentionally. I'd also hurt myself through out. Relationship is not something you can take to experience with (but if you never try, you never know, so does devil speak.) I'm so selfishly taking it for myself and this guilt has never subside because I am guilty in experiencing it. I made up my mind and my heart to break it knowing it causes more pain in the future than now. I am now gradually hoping what I'm learning now helps to fade the guilt I'm having...

I thought I should have accepted all the punishments that God thinks I should for hurting another soul. Yet God sends me another angel. I am not gonna deny that there is a new hope in my life now. And this time as I learned my lesson very well, I eagerly dont want to step into any relationship in a rush. The angel that God sends has taught me very well about patience and understanding. He has taught me very well what I should be looking for in a relationship. The bonding, the admiration, the respect, the understanding, the maturity... all these are essential in a relationship. Love alone, is not sufficient.

I know relationships is something I find it for myself for the rest of my life. It is the decision I'm gonna make for myself. I've been advised for I wonder how many times from my close ones, I've been scolded... But, I still think there is hope for me. I'm not wrong in choosing whom I wanna be with for my entire life. Shall I be with somebody just because I will feel utterly guilty for leaving him? Shall I be with somebody just because I'm used to having him? Or shall I be with somebody whom I love with my entire heart and for him alone for the rest of my life?

I'm a devil as I hurt people's heart. I'm not good. I dont know if I'll ever deserve someone better. But there he is standing there with open arms. I know I should cherish.. And how I'm doing it is just to hold on and not bump my head blindly again to it. Because I value too much of this angel that God sent.

As for my health.. except losing few kgs, food poisoning added up to it that causes me to lose another few kgs that I'm now at my lowest weight level ever. I now weight 48 kg. Happy it is but it also causes people to worry. :) For a food lover as me, I'm sure I'll gain back.

To my babe Daniel, Zoe and Wendy. I miss you all very much. When things happen I just wish I can hold you all and cry over it. Pls do update me how are you now. I can always know how's Dan is doing by vising to his blog. Zoe and Wendy, Wendy especially, I worry to the utmost about you. I'm sorry I didnt find time to catch up with you. But I always have you in my mind and heart.

Zoe and Eric, thank you for accompanying me through my hardest moment. Your comments are much appreciated and considerable :) Thank you for supporting me no matter what shit and how bad is the shit that I've got myself into.

Havent I shared with you my lovely cousin sister pics? Her name is Crystal and she's just a heartthrob. She's 2 years old now. Learning to speak. A very naughty girl but she's irresistable :) I'm sure you'll love her when you meet her :) Here are some pics to share with you all.

taken a day at her house, I have no idea what's the animal hat she's wearing :)

Then, here are some pics taken on her 2 year old birthday :)

Here is a pic that is taken much earlier ... I think she's 1 year plus at that time. Isn't she a beauty :)

Now these 2 are taken lately.. naughty as she always is !

That's it for now guys.

.: Holidays end :.

Argh... at last it came to an end.. 5 days of rest, how much have you done? I must admit I got to spend sometime having fun.. Been to movie at night on Monday night; and sing karaoke on Tuesday; and I went to pick up my mom on Wed.. Hmm so I guess I didnt waste any days of it hehe.

"Frost bite" is the movie I watched on Monday night. It's a swedish film and it's about vampire. I would say being an horror movie it made me laughed watching.. So, it wasn't scary.. Hahahhaa I got the tickets free that's why I went to watch it.. Else.. I dont think I'll buy the tickets on purpose.. Hehehe

Tuesday karaoke session is the best time during the holiday. It was about 8 of us.. And we really sang our lungs out. So tired after it. But no regret calling these fellas going. I laughed alot during singing because they are just sooo happening and funny!! I can see they enjoyed themselves much too! Hahah next time I'm gonna call them out again for karaoke!!!

How many of you will tell the truth when blogging? I believe something still need to be reserved in myself while blogging.. because.. it's not my private own blog. Everyone of you can view it. I guess my little reservation is not so bad anywayz.. I don't know.. I've seen a friend who's just saying everything out. I admire his braveness. :) maybe someday I can be like one too

.: A trip to recharge :.

Been away to Cherating for the past weekend. Went to Club Med with colleagues. The trip was organized by my company so I don't see any reason not to go. Another reason is, I was excited because this is my return after 13 years. Nothing's changed. Only more things are extra charged now. Lolz... well, gotta keep up with the world I guess. I missed the special necklace where it's the exchange of cash. And you dont have to carry the cash around in there. Now it's changed to "Easy Card" where from my understanding, it works something like a credit card and they'll need your credit card for a RM1.5k of verification. Souvenir shop, spa treatment, and bar needs to pay. Fair enough.. The spa treatment isn't so worthy because I think you can find anywhere cheaper than there. It costs you RM200 for a 50 mins of Bali Massage :P Hehe..

I'll share some photos with y'all.. Hope they'll make you to feel interested to visit there. When you go, dont forget to invite me too! I didnt get to play much in there. My skin condition was acting up. Just before I took off to the highway my left arm was having rashes caused by unknown reason. So I brought a cream which I don't even know if it's working to ease the itch. The journey took us about 3.5 hours using the new highway, all the way from Genting highway to Kuantan - Kuala Terengganu. The rashes was worse on the 2nd day and I didnt even have the mood to play! >.<

Pantai Beach - the beach Club Med. Nice, clean, comfy, "wavy", windy... It's just so relax to sit there and listen to the ocean wave.. :)

Relaxing in this tomb beside the swimming pool also not bad.. How I wish my dear was there.. Kinda romantic to just fold ourselves inside.. hehehe

I cant complain much about the food there. Cant get a chance to be starving hahahaha. 13 years back I didnt get to enjoy much on the food because all I ate was lots of sausages (for my memory). Now, NEVA BABE!! hahahaa! The taste bud seducing cousine is in a variety from Chinese to Italian to Japan to Korean, to Malay to French, and some sweet sensations of ice creams and desserts. One more thing that's gonna make some people slurpping over is FREE FLOW BEER! Yeah right.. Enjoyed myself with a glass of beer and some wine.. Couldn't ask for more ;) Here are some of my food to share LOL..

Played basketball, archery, swimming, ping pong... I missed the trapaze, bungy bounce, aqua exercise, yoga exercise, Power walk, kayak, and ETC... ALL SORTS OF FUN GAMES!! geeezzz I'm gonna go again next year and making sure I'm in a perfect shape and condition! And I'm gonna get a pair of bikini!! Gosh looking at my 1-piece there really felt so out! hahahaha!!!

Nice post! Bull's Eye, not....

Beware of the monkeys there though.. Kinda big size and they're not afraid of human! Lots of them!!

That's it for now guys... I'm sure you're getting a hard time loading the pics. :) ciaoz..

.: Come & Go :.

People come, people go ... when you hope they stay long enough.. they tell you it's the time to say goodbye..

It's sad knowing 2 of my colleagues are leaving. I thought they found the current one is good for them.. But, as one is having a better option in life, one shall not stop Him from moving on..It wasn't the best company I've been under, I guess I still have more to learn before I leave. I'm glad I've known them, in fact the colleagues whom I'm having, I can't complain anything further.. They're jsut great. I like them!

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The anime that I'm so into it, One Piece, is slowly coming out with each of the latest episode. My brother is crazy over it as well so I'll always have the latest episode downloaded. It's a great story to watch, and to learn......

Every single character in the anime has something special : they maybe lousy in many ways, but there's one thing that they are so handy with -- they teach me to appreciate who I am and what I am.

Every one of them back each other's up : the friendship and the bonding among them is nothing in words that can described -- they teach me the correct way to treat friend and to people ( the ones that I dislike excluded, I'm still having stinky attitude towards them.=P)

Every one of them laughs from the heart, even for a small matter / for a silly thing that one's done -- they teach me to laugh when the situation is stressful and bad, for no matter how worry I am it wont loosen just because I'm worried. It will loosen when I face it with a light & open heart, and take appropriate action.

Every one of them need each other to go on in life : for one will never leaves another behind.. -- they teach me to be caring, for the society nowadays that people are too busy to even ask " how have you been?"

And many more ...

I just love the story. And love everyone of them. Luffy's character has taught me much. I've become more cheerful and open hearted, and open minded.

I will follow the story until the end :)

.: Happy Birthday Mom :.

Not today... last Sunday.. late to post it here.. Anywayz, 1 year older lar..wish my mom to continuously be a happy and a healthy bird! I love ya muaks muaks muaks!!! Dad was back to celebrate her birthday hehehe So we went to a place called Cosmic to have dinner. It's at Maple Suite, Jalan Changkat Raja Chulan.. I managed to take a pic of my food, others were too hungry they didnt wait for me to take pic T.T ...

Banana Chicken - really is 2 fried banana on top of the chicken.


And myself hahahaha

.: Finally.... or not... :.

Been having dinner at 11++pm lately.. not today, not yersterday though, at least the work is there already. IT IS THERE~~~~!!!! I can eat and sleep more peacefully.. I surely hope it's gonna be a bugless system but hahahahahah I'm gonna laugh out loud if anyone of us said that becoz it hasnt come to the stage where we can tell ourselves that it's bugless... Coz designer is us, developer is us, and testers is also us.. What on earth are we doing?!?!?!? Did I purposely insert the correct data to be tested and hope that I dont see an error page comes out next? YES! I DID! It's the nature because I really felt tired to go through tons and tons of testing just to make sure that my work is accurate and can avoid the bug to happened! Anywayz, today is Saturday and I still arrived home at 9pm because I was stucked in the office, right after I finished my training in SOA Bootcamp at Sunway Resort & Spa ... gosh...

Life is not so tough afterall if you have adapted to it. SO true! For the first few times when I had to stay back late to do the work, I really felt sad and tired, and angry (looking out from 12th floor of Menara TM off Federal Highway, I really wanted to curse the people who're heading home at 6.30pm...)... Then, 2nd day, 3rd day, 1 week... ... It happened to be a norm for me. It's like .. "Oh? 9pm already?! wow so fast ...." and feel nothing wrong abt that. LOL..... Luckily the hardwork paid off, I could finish up my work just before the due and performed the UAT test without much hammer-falls on my head and my colleagues. It was pretty smooth. :P

And got the chance to attend to a training bootcamp at Sunway Resort & Spa. NICE eh? hehehe! I call it a run away because it's 2 days of training. Meals provided, 3 times a day - morning tea time, lunch, and afternoon tea time. So the stomach is always full, and so... the want of falling asleep is always there! Take a look around you can see at least 5 people are "resting their eyes".. and the one beside me is already snoring~! hahahahaha! It was quite fun because you can get your hands on the lab exercise and try out something new. Bad thing is just that the lecturing session is really hypnotizing... god.... I finally surrendered to my Sleeping Devil and gave in and let him taken me away... Maybe I've not been resting well lately so I found it really sleepy during the lecture session.. But of course I just closed my eyes for 1-2 minutes.. hahaha Cant really fall asleep in front of so many people eh? Saw a handsome and so eager wanted to know his name. Finally I did with the help of my friend hahahaha! But didnt get to talk to him... ish... pai seh lar!! So that's something interesting in the bootcamp, so to speak :P

.: Frustration, Exhaustion :.

Been working late recently because of a project that is supposed to due next week, or few weeks back? Not sure... the management people always telling you that the due is supposed to be yesterday, always yesterday...

I dont actually feel tired or I'm too tired until I dont feel anything. Imagine 12 hours of brain squeezing, body is okay but mind is totally exhausted. My colleagues and I cant actually stand till 10pm at night because a person's persistance and motivation cant last that long. Eric and I tried to at least enjoy the extra hours of working by singing and creating stupid jokes over some other colleagues. Then it doesnt feel so bad. Our PM is a person that .... I dont know, I dont know him much to judge him but from what he did to us yesterday, I really starting to disrespect ( or I already do) him until I dont really want to have any topics of discussion or chit-chat him, just want to get my work done. Imagined, yes the company didnt say they force us to stay late at client's site office, but moving to here and having to listen to the clients saying " You guys coming on Sunday right? Today work till 12 o'clock right? ", what can we do? Nothing. But to hope that at least our senior managers would do something / say something to motivate us. But none. Furthermore, our PM went out for dinner at 6++pm yesterday (as the day before he stayed and ended up having dinner with us at 9++pm, I guess he can't stand it), and we havent seen him come back after 2 hours. When one of my colleague called him up and told him that we gotta leave, he still asked us to stay. Where was him? Having dinner. Where were we? Staying in the office with exhausted mind and hungry stomach.Yes, we can actually go out and eat at 6++pm / 7++pm and come back, but dont you think it's a waste of time. So we agreed to work till 8++pm, then off work and go have dinner, then go home. At least there's no break in between and we can do some work. . . .. I dont know what's your perception towards this situation, if you think he's okay being like that. Then maybe I'll have to change my point of view.

.: Imbalance mentality:.

Previous job, I complained that I dont get to use my brain much.....

Current job, I complained.. and I suspect that I begin to have mentality imbalance problem.. I'll tend to think or say things that are extraordinarily stupid, or imagine things that are impossible or unreachable, yet can have a fun time laughing over it with colleagues. I guess everybody is the same then. I"m glad I have one of the best colleagues in the world. They not only easy going, very funny too. With them, thing is not so tough. :)

.: Yippie!!!:.

I'm going to watch Eason!! wahahahahah!!!!

.: Quote ..... :.

"There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me" -- Stacie Orrico "There's Gotta be More to Life"

.: Father's Day :.

Anyone of you celebrated Father's Day with daddy? I cant stand all the massage chair advertisements, it seems like to express love to parents is only by buying massage chairs for them? SWT! Well..... shame to speak, I'm unaffordable (at the moment) to buy such chair for them... But they already have one ... ggrrrriiirrr...

We went to dine out at a Thai restaurant - named Thai Sabye Sabye at Lucky Plaza, Bandar Park (Off Jln Klang Lama). It's the restaurant we'll tend to go for whatever function it is - mostly is for birthday celebration. The food there is nice, for people who like spicy food, this is the perfect place for you. I've got some pics to share, yes, food again! hahahaha

Songkai Chicken (Thai style curry chicken - very "lemak" (gravy)!) & Mayonneise Prawn - not spicy, very rich in taste (one of my favourites :P)


4 Dai Tin Wong (4 types of vege/beans fried in famous sambal sauce) & Crab Omelette (light, very good starter)


Lastly ... the Thai Style Fried Rice. We always order this accompanied with other dishes, however, the dishes are just nice to have with white rice alone!!! And there's Hot Plate Sambal Sotong(squid)... the sambal chili is the best!!!


As you notice there are a few shaky pictures. .. coz my hand was shaking when taking the pics because of too hungry ahhahahaha! Kidding! :P It's just that my shand shoke when taking the pics, sorry for the bad quality!

.: Weekend with X-Men 3:.

I'm sure most of you all have watched X-Men III so I believe I wont be a spoiler here talking about it. So what do you guys think about it? Some said disappointing, some said ok-ok lah, for me I think it's cool (maybe because I dont moan over Cyclops's death that's why it's acceptable for me). I like Jean very very much I think she's so much more powerful than anybody else in the movie! I feel it's cruel the way she killed people, esp. Professor Clark. But I like her, I like her hair! Hehehehee. Did you guys watch until the end? If you didnt then you missed the important part of the movie! Nyek nyek...

I got some photos to show, yeap it's about food again! Hahaha We went to Wong Kok Char Chan Ting to have lunch so I didnt miss any chance to snap snap! Heheheh here they are...

Double sauce chicken baked rice & XO sauce egg rolled with chicken floss.

"Hui Guo Rou" fried noodle & ice lemon green tea , further up is Pineapple ice blended with jelly chunks

Didnt miss the chance to snap it with myself haahahahha!

.: New job :.

New job .... Well I dont know what to tell about it except it's .... about .. programming, and programming. I entered at the wrong time, Eric said. Because I didnt get to attend any training before involving in the current project which is very big, but very rush, yet our number of resources are drying out.... Guess why...? I guess it's the pressure that people cannot take it.. and it's ridiculous to implement new framework into such a huge & rush project. It was torturing at first, it is still tortoring now because my brain juice is basically dried out everyday. I wasn't a perfect programmer, I dont know will I ever be, but I'll try my best to learn and catch up to my best ability. It's interesting and challenging that I wanted to say vulgar words everytime my silly mistakes were found and corrected by Eric. I learned a lot more faster as I have reference done by him. I cant imagine my life there without him... THX ALOT PAL!!!

New colleagues are fine, easy-going. The number of people I have now is so much different compare to my previous company. But I'm glad that it goes well for me. The funny thing about human is that, there are people whom you just cant get along with and you don't know why. Maybe I'm silly and clumsy so it's easy for me to approach new faces hahahaa!

Been outing with colleagues at 1 Utama yesterday, we went to play Bowling and dine at Shogun afterwards. To my surprise I didnt expect that my boss was gonna treat us at Shogun. IT"S MY HEAVEN!!! I once imagined how nice it'll be if there're unlimited Japanese cruisine for me to eat, eat and eat. Hahahahaa! The place is nice, food is NICE. So I took a few photos with my phone.




Nice eh? wakakakakaka

This afternoon we went to SS2 to have lunch, at a place called "Tai Zi" (prince in Chinese). Nice place to hang out. Eric and I were eyeing on the plasma TV on the wall --- good for watching football match! The food they serve there is similar to Kim Gary. Only the cheese is much more than Kim Gary's cheese baked rice. I feel like the cheese is more than the rice! Of course the price .... well quite expensive if compare to Kim Gary. But they have something cute....

Hahahah! cute or not !!!!

Been a long time nvr update my blog so I'll just write whatever here in 1 go.... Hope you all dont mind hehehehe.

.: Big day...... my Big day...:.

26th...... hmm... seems like I'm pretty old... When I was 18y/o, I imagined what I'm like when I am 25y/o. So the time has come, and now am way after 25, that really tells that .... time doesnt wait for people. When you're so young, do treasure that one and only youth and make it the best memory you have for the rest of your life because when you grow older, you'll never have that time ever again. Even you think you can, practically, it's not the same anymore. I've not achieved plenty but not bad of myself. Can't compare else I'm gonna feel tough all the time. So this day I just stretch loose and have some fun. It's my day afterall, can't I just play with it a little bit? I went out on Saturday to celebrate a day earlier with my love on so I can leave the time for Mother's Day on Sunday. So I did. We went for movie- MI3 (it's cool!) and dine out. Spent lunch & dinner in Mid Valley so here I let you all see what we had on that day.... hehehe

Pineapple ice - at Kim gary

A set lunch with Cheezy baked rice + drink + dessert + soup ( obviously the rice has not arrived yet)


Cheezy baked pineapple curry Pork chop Spaghetti .... it smells NNIIICCEEEEE~!

The Cheese baked Fillet Fish rice is here. Cheesy Cheesy~~~


Then, after watching MI3 ... around 7pm ++ we went to Oh!Sushi for dinner. Hehehee.. I made him to treat me Japanese food nyek nyek nyek....

Yummie YUmmie

more ......


Ho ho.... nice ? was given a present in the morning but Had to keep it wrapped until 12am!! So after heading home, the rest of the night I was excitedly waiting for the moment to come.. Keep looking at the clock and asked "Can I open it now pls?" But the answer I got, although I know it's gonna be a "No" I still wanted to ask.... And at last, at 12am, I opened my first present and ta-da!!! I'm very touched after seeing it because that's exactly what I wanted to get as my current one is finished.....

Oh yes .. I love the box....

And inside is .....

Now ..... Ain't I the lucky girl?

.: Some food...... :.

So I took some pics at my lunchbox and my colleague's food.... I really stopped them from eating first and let me snap their food while everyone of us was basically starving at 4pm, and bare in mind, my working time? 4pm is my lunch time ....
My mom's cooking..... always the best hehe! There's... fried fish with sambal petai prawn, & some vege (healthy~~)


And this is ..... Sweet and Sour Chicken rice ...believe me, it's nicccccceeeeee!


Char Kuey Teow~~~

and Sweet and Sour Fish rice .. nothing special than the chicken eh? But I think it should be okay.....


That's it this time. More to come in the future (i'm just gonna fully utilized my camera hahaha)... feeling for food yet? heheheheee

.: My birthday celebration in...much earlier!!! :.

Colleagues made a birthday celebration for the ones whose birthday falls in the Month of Taurean (& Gemini).. so we had a simple yet warmy party time in the office floor itself... Since I got a new digital camera (YIIIIPPPPIIIEEEE!!! YYYAAAAHHHHOOOOOOO!!!) So I took some pics to show you guys my colleagues, my office, my table, my cakes, my games, & my lunch.. my colleague's food.. bla.. bla.....

Me posting with 2 cakes ( share cakes with 3 other colleagues) & my birthday cake!


The other cake hehehhee ...cute hor?? I took the Crayon sin chan wakakakkakaa

Preparing the game........Very terrible!!!!..... But I think she's more terrible hahahhahaa


This is my place ... :)



my team member Nei, and Ben.Managed to snap with just a few of them today, will get more later (before I leave)

Neighbour team Tony, he's a funny funny guy hahahaha...

Pic taken when going outside to the nearby Penang House to have late-lunch aka early-dinner together with team member Mas & Salmey(front row, left to right), and Nei (At the back)