.: Without you here, Oh how I'm missing you so.. :.

Having you as part of my life,
Has felt like such a breakthrough;
And so I just wanted you to know,
How much I really, trully miss you.

My many thoughts of you,
Sometimes happy, sometimes sad,
Always make me feel so special,
Because of the good times we've had.

I only wish that you could be
Here with me right now,
I'd magically transport you here,
if only I knew how...

Lovely poem .... I saw this via flowgo.com. So I shamelessly copied it down. Hehehe. Sweet isn't it?

.: That's my CNY, every year... :.

Hello everyone! Happy Chinese New Year. Sorry it's been quite sometime I've not been updating any entries into my blog :P Been buzy since the 1st day of CNY. I'm glad that I've done quite alot of work for my FYP before the CNY thus I could temporarily put it aside during CNY and now, it's time to start back.

Every year my CNY is the same --- everyone of my family is like been working 20 hours a day at the end of the day when we reach home. Exhausted, dirty, and the last thing we'd do is to go out again. TV or bed are our favourites at night because we've been visiting from house to house in an extremely hot day ( I wonder what happened, it's like an oven outside everyday of CNY! ) so I'd very much prefer to just ..... have a little peace of mind and body before I go to bed to rest and start again the routine the next day. BUT it's been fun. I met with relatives and cousins that I havent seen for months. Some changed alot, some are still the same ^^. OF course getting red packets is the most exciting thing during CNY (That's the MAIN THING Nyek nyek nyek!)

This year I've got a new place to go -- to visit my RO friend's house. The place we gathered is my guild master's house. I decided to drive that night because I know my bro is gonna get himself tipsy ( or drunk, whatever). I gotta mention that his mom makes ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS cookies. We played some game and chatted alot and we met with new members whose faces we've never seen. They are quite bold to get into my car, not afraid that I might drop them in the middle of KLANG highway wahahahah! Anywayz, it's been fun.

Got 3 gatherings to attend this weekend. 1st is my primary schoolmates, then Eric's house as he called for a gathering, and the last is my secondary schoolmates. Well, gotta do more work before I spend this 2 days without much progress.

Alrite, that's about my CNY... Lastnight my family worshiped "ti gong", the tradition my family carries out every 8th day of CNY. My neighbourhood was very buzy playing with fire crackers, the atmosphere was very nice, abit noisy though but that's what CNY is meant to be ain't it? hehe. Got onto bed around 2am.... tired. Hehe. And now I think the Chinese is anticipating the last day of CNY, which is the 15th day, Zap Goh Meh, also known as Oriental Valentine's Day. Lolz. Till then, Gong Xi Fa Chai everyone, have a great CNY :)

.: 脱掉 :.

12123 N 外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉 龟毛脱掉 脱掉
通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Fre Frer Frer

Hey Yoh 穿上保护色还以为自己有看头 想要有点搞头
怎么老是觉得很笨重 再也看不下去
别怪人口太多那是心事重重
空气污浊 有人太过臃肿

瞭了吧 就是想得太多 又卡住头
差点要本性流露 就不要ㄍ一ㄥ过头

七情六欲 仁义道德 谁不是天生就有
yo baby ya baby 全脱掉　
换一套　就地开窍

我们穿了太多烦恼 热到自己受不了
脾气总会莫名其妙 冒烟又傻笑
你辛苦 我辛苦
何必那么苦

yo baby ya baby 规矩太多一起脱掉 有搞头一起飙
浑身上下清爽畅凉快 活着多美好
你知道 你想要 那样才翘

This Aln't About Sex It's About Love
And If You Can Feel It Let Me Hear You Say

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na~
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na

外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉
龟毛脱掉 脱掉
通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Frer Frer Frer

有冲动 没行动 那就什么都白搞
没问题 干脆我们来分工合作
谁要点那把火 谁要火上加油
场子热了谁都不要躲 干脆假戏真做

跳进来搅和 给你机会放纵
拜托大家不要败再没事穿太多
123脱得精光锻炼身体有突破
yo baby I Want You (I Need You) I Want You I Need You

我们穿了太多烦恼 热到自己受不了
脾气总会莫名其妙 冒烟又傻笑
你辛苦 我辛苦
何必那么苦
Yo baby yo baby 规矩太多一起脱掉
有搞头一起飙 浑身上下清爽凉快
活着多美好 你知道 你想要 那样才翘

Ha I Don't Know About You But I'm Felling Good
And If You Can Feel It Too Just Show Me What You Got
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉 脱 掉
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na

外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉
龟毛脱掉 脱掉 通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Frer Frer Frer

.: Shopping Shopping :.

Finally everything is settling down and what's left now is FYP ( gotta work on the networking after CNY). I wish I can finish it up 2 weeks before the submission so I can work on the documentation THOROUGHLY. I guess what they really emphasize on is the documentation. *pif* I hate writing....

I went shopping with my mom at Mid Valley yesterday. Not much of people that's what I like coz I dont need to spend time queuing up for fitting room! Went in couple shops but can't seem to get what I want --- nice to look at and reasonable price. IMPOSSIBLE! Perhaps my requirement is too high? Ended up I spent around RM200 for 3 pieces of clothes -- Padini slack, Voir skirt, GEB top. My mom's mouth went "O" shape when paying for those but erm... mom, I only shopping once in a while.. Hehehe when I work I'll buy many many nice clothes for you ya! Oh ya, I need to get new sandals and shoes.... kekeekekekek might go shopping again within these few days. I seldom got mood for shopping -- when I do it's really a necessary for me to get new clothes. Hehehe buying new clothes is something HAPPY, it'll make you HAPPY hahhaha! *stupid*

Tomorrow's Wendy's turn for her MIP. I hope she'll do it great. Last 2 days she was so panic and anxious. A few of us tried to give her a hand on working out the UML diagrams, which is like more than 60 diagrams? GOD BLESS! I spent the night at Zoe's place and then we went yumcha around 2++am. SOmething happened which was unexpected -- oh ya the joker was me, again. Somehow I got to make the table of friends laughed happily, and I think I spoiled my image abit? BUT HEY! I dont speak like that normally doesn't mean I dont know how to.... nyek nyek nyek! Good that I made you all happy ya?

Gotta clean up my study room later on. So I stop here. GONG XI FA CHAI everyone :) Enjoy the new year!

.: 浪子心声 :.

难分真与假 人面多险诈
几许有共享荣华 畔水滴不分差
无知井里蛙 徒望添声价
空得意目光如麻 谁料金屋变败瓦

命里有时终须有
命里无时莫强求

雷声风雨打 何用多惊怕
心公正白璧无瑕 行善积福最乐也
人比海里沙 无用多牵挂
君可见漫天落霞 名利息间似雾化

A very meaningful song sang by Sam Hui. For those who can read Chinese, stop doing what's on your hand for a while, take a look at these words and think about it. :)

.: Time for CNY cleaning!!! :.

Woosh~~~ Finally, assignments, test ... ALL OVER! *yippie* It's time for cleaning my room and CNY shopping heheheheheh SO happy! It's been long since my last shopping. Feel so excited about it. I just settled down from the 1st round of cleaning my room. I told myself today after class I must at least wipe off some of the dirt of my room, and so I did ! I not only wiped off the dirt, I cleaned the edge of the wall, I wiped whatever frames I got in my room, I cleaned up my magneted dolls which are so adorable to look at..... and gobble gobble gobble... Tomorrow I'm gonna tidy up my closet which is now a horrible, ugly, terrible mess !! Hehehe! And then.... nyek nyek nyek, shopping time!!! New tops, new pants, new skirt, new shoes/sandals wakakakakaka shop till I drop!

.: Blank Headed :.

Been writing a paper regarding professional issues particularly in the topic of Video Surveillance and Software Piracy. PHiew... so much to write, so many words to think of. I lost my straight head after I finished them. I even talked in a MSN chat window with a friend for so long then only I realized I'd been talking to a wrong person. *lolz* And even so, I dont know what I'm writing !

It's Daniel's turn for the midpoint meeting today. Hope he did it great.

.: A bit of jealousy spice things up? :.

Hmm ... when do you get jealous? Over something you can't get but people have it? Or.. over someone whom you utmostly care but she/he keeps babbling someone else in front of you? Or.... over some compliments you think you should have but they ain't just for you anyway? *giggle* Too much of jealousy do nothing good. In fact, too much of anything do nothing good. BUT! Maybe.... sometimes a bit of jealousy spice things up. Like.. it can pull 2 persons closer than ever? OR... it lets people know how much you care and that it means important to you. hehe...

I heard my babe Daniel told me about he's been molested. *WHOA!* Where? In the gym. When? I think lately. HOW? yeah that's the right question. I think gym nowadays are packed with gays???? But congrats Daniel for having such amazing charm to have a guy eyed on you. Is he handsome anyway? *LOL* I dont know if I'm permitted to tell you the details, I leave it for you to find out, he's available at his blog. Check it out. *hehehehe*

Alright, gotta continue with my work. TTYL! (Talk To Y'all Later) have a nice Saturday everyone * wink*

Current mood: Quite a relax one?
Current music: er.... MTVs on MTV

.: 我的心太乱 :.

夜里难以入睡
用什么可以麻醉
情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪
有些事你无法体会
卸下了防备孤独跟随
我想要一个自己的空间
能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想像的甜美
那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱
要一些空白
你若是明白
让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱
不敢再贪更多爱
想哭的我
却怎么哭也哭不出来

我的心太乱
要一些空白
老天在不在
忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱
害怕爱情的背叛
想哭的我
像是个迷路的小孩
迷路的小孩

.: 出卖 :.

谁想到是你
连自己都耻笑我
曾是好姊妹竟跟他数算我
假好心的交代过
你说他早想甩我
更说爱你竟比我多

* 就算情人多坏 亦惯了照捱
被战友战败 就似亲手给活埋
被你无情出卖 由细个到大
就算再伟大 仍恨你太像犹大
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 愿你们欠定我都好
甚么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你跟他喜好 我甚么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
绝没甚么羞耻之心真可安乐就做
我伴侣 我伴侣 抱着了我的知己
将我击倒 比掌掴更高

Repeat *
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 让你们欠定我都好
什么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你都不知道 我有冤不必报
我越受害越显得清高
你二人为隔夜仇内疚最好 别要认错乱说声早
你跟他喜好 我什么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
恨亦付出不少心机 只好出卖量度
我未到却做到 看着你与他怎么早晚不保
比宽恕更高

.: Hope it's not too late :.

Been working on my FYP since 2 weeks back. I would say the progress is so far so good. At least the desktop application is almost done. And what's left is the mobile application. I hate to start work but once I decided to really start working, it feels really nice to see there's result of my effort. I think I've over my scope, though. Well hell ya as long as it works nicely. Now what I'm worried about is the data communication between mobile device and desktop. Before this I'm also worried about how to write program in PDA but I'd solved this problem yesterday, with the help of my "si fu". Now I can write a simple interface for my mobile application. As there are many limitations in writing mobile application so the interface will be fairly simple. I guess next time I can write simple application and install it into my PDA. wahahaha! My own program!!! LOLz.

Working on my own project has caused me to lose grab on the other project... my friend is doing the work and I could hardly help coz I can't catch up with the coding now. Feel really sorry about that. But I'll do my best in documentation, hope I could make a bit of contribution...

Chinese New Year is coming.. "ang pow" time ... haha! I guess I can't enjoy to the fullest in this year's CNY coz I'm gonna worry about my FYP anyway.. >.<"! Nevertheless, I wish all to have a prosperous time during CNY, win "manyak-manyak" oh~~~ hehehee...

OH .. later I'll be going to Mid Valley for the RO Carnival and meet my brother there. See what's there to offer. I think there're gonna be lots of dolls... and maybe cheap reload cards. (hope so.. hehe). Guess I deserve a bit of getaway after all the hard work..(so sad... to shopping mall is a getaway??!?!?!) Have a nice weekend everyone. :)

Current mood: normal
Current music: 98.8 fm

.: My Confession :.

I have been blind
Unwilling
To see the true love
You're giving
I have ignored every blessing
I'm on my knees
Confessing...

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you
I thought I was strong without you
For so long
Nothing could move me
For so long
Nothing cound change me

Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

You are the air that I breathe
You are the ground beneath my feet
When did I stop believing?

.: If I Ain't Got You :.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

.: 我的错 :.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向，不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤, 学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好地爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心， 还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤，没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔经伤你如此， 不在放肆
为何总到失去才懂得难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守后
都是为我的错， 错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

.: It feels nice to develop something that works :.

It's been sometime since I last wrote anything. Been busy with my own stuffs since few days back. I fell, it felt lousy, panic, nervous, heavy .. so I took a piece of paper and a marker pen and I wrote for myself: "Jia u! (boat will be straight when comes to the bridge)!! gam ba de!!". And I sticked the paper on the wall right infront of me. My mom laughs at me, my bro said I'm crazy. But this own-consolation does work. I am self-encouraging. So I'm standing up again. I got an expert to guide me for doing my FYP and I really thank him thounsand times. And I thank the friend who introduced me this helper.

I start doing the parts which I'm good at. And so far they are progressing and I feel good about it. Although the consequences are I'm maybe falling sick now coz I'm feeling uncomfortable, it feels superb to see it running without errors. Guess I should go to bed early tonight for tomorrow's workload.

To my friends, thank you for your support. I will do my best, at least to the extend that I have no regret. *hehe* Gam ba de !!

2nd pic I took, found a better view. See the square in the middle? There's where the emperium is (a gold rock which decideds the castle belongs to whom if one can hit it). We won, again :)

The pic is taken after RO guild war ended. We lost the one we conquered previously but gained a new one at the last minute. nyek nyek nyek~~

.: The 1st joke I made in Year 2005 :.

Hmm.. so it happened when Daniel, Wendy and I were talking in the class. Daniel went back to hometown during holiday so he was telling us about the jokes he and his friends made back there. So he was talking about Clayton, who mistaken Tiger as the representative animal for Leo (as you all know, Leo is lion) when he was asked what's his horoscope. Here's the conversation:

Daniel: "Ey you know got once we asked about Clayton what's his horoscope, his horoscope is Leo but he said "Tiger" instead of Lion. Then me and Louise so blur and we laughed. Louise said "I'm the goat on the hill", and I said "I'm the fair goat in the household". "
Wendy & Jae: "hahahahahah, tiger...."
Daniel: "Yeah..silly"
Jae: "Hahaha then I'm the monkey on the tree"

Wendy & Daniel stunned for a while, looked at me one of a kind...

Jae: "what? Monkey is on the tree mah~~~" and I looked back at them wondering what's wrong..After a few secs...

Wendy:"Jae, we're talking about the horoscope here, what's up with the monkey?"
Jae: "OOPS!!!"

And there both of them laughed at me hysterically, I laughed at my blur-ness. What? Hey he was talking about TIGER and GOAT and they are 2 of the 12 lunar animals, what's wrong if I say MONKEY! Can't believe I fell for that. grrrr... LOLZ. I laughed till I cried. I really think if I dont have Wendy and Daniel, my APIIT life would be EXTREMELY boring. I hope they feel the same about me? *hahaha!* Yeah ... But I dont know why I'll always be the one (almost everytime) that creates jokes. Well, a good start for the year, I think. :)

Current mood: ready to be massively occupied
Current music: 98.8 fm on radio

The WOE on Saturday, 1st Jan 2005. We got a castle at last too. It was taken by others, but thanks to our powerful players, we got it back. nyek nyek nyek! ~*Companions*~ might suck, but it kicks butts!

The 2nd castle we conquered on the following WOE event on Wednesday... We got it in the very last minute. Haha! Lucky assses ..