4 Dec 2005, my convo at Renaissance Hotel, Kuala Lumpur. This pic was taken before the ceremony started. My parents were on time. And hah the bouquet ain't mine! it's Wendy's.... lol.... More pic to come, waiting for my friends to send them to me.

Taken at the main entrance of the hotel with my darling mommy after the ceremony. It was HOT!!!!

Went back home and took a pic with my new Xmas tree. My mom bought it and my bro decorated it. NICE! Finaly we got a tree after talking about it for few years! Phew...

Funny feeling wearing this at home ......

.: Convo day :.

This Sunday is my convo day... At last.. weird that I dont feel so much excited about it but my parents. They have been asking about it since 2 months back. Heheh but it is understood as I'm the first child that go to the convo. Lots of friends that I've not been seeing since the last paper, I'll see you on the day!

Other than that, nothing really much happening except.... work, work and work. I'm not crazy at work dont worry I reach on time and leave on time as my job doesn't require any OT (sometimes, very rare) . But the working time has taken most of the time of the day off me. I only have 1-2 hours to relax and do things I like at night before I go to bed. But well, it's alright. I have extra 1 hour to hang out in the morning to help out chores or do something like this, writing blog. Hehehe. Everything is quite good, not much of complaints. Learning the trick of working and seeing the truth of society everyday. Study world is always a protected space, you know. Working is kinda confusing sometimes because you're hoping for some place better , or to move up, or to move away only because you wanna see the number doubled in your account. We are chasing for something better everyday. But do stay on the ground and be glad that you breathe every single day because there are alot of people who beg for living but not granted. :)
Argh.... long winded :) So I hope you all have a great day today. I miss you all.

.: A nice song to share :.

"Because Of You" - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Love on first sight - I fall in love with this song the moment I heard it. The MTV is talking about Kelly having a sad family background which she never want that to repeat on herself in her latter age. The lyric is painful. I thought it is a typical love song because of the title "Because Of You". Lolz. Those who havent heard of it, give it a try. :)

Mood at the moment : So-so
Song at the moment: Ke You Lun - "Ku Xiao Bu De"

The man in the middle is my center manager. He was cool, wearing a cape (whoa~~!!) He looked sorta like a Dracula that night. His masquerade is very nice, sorry that I didnt get to capture it. :)

Un-cover the eyes ..... LOL

The Annual Dinner of my company, HDPM. Theme of the night - Masquerade ... Hmm I kinda regret to get the mask like this, but ok-lah hehehee Will get a nicier one from Time Square soon!!! The other 3 Leng Lui are my colleage, (clock wise from top) Lena, Kim, me and Jenny

.: A night to remember :.

Somehow I got addicted to The Phantom of The Opera. I dunno why but it seems like it's having a magnetic power or something that drawn me into it and I can never resist not to listen to the music.

My annual dinner event's opening was playing an editted part of the movie, where there are many people dancing of the stairs of the opera house while singing "Masquarade". I was so drawn to it I can recall how I felt the first time I watched the movie. It maybe be nothing to other people - alot of people, but I just think it's a very very nice movie.

It was a grand night. Everyone dressed up very nicely. Handsome, beautiful, funny, cool, sexy..... It's a "WOW!" night. My first time experiencing a grand dinner of 2000 people, of an international company. Just when I thought my dress was abit exaggerating - I realized mine is just nice compared to other people. They DRESSED UP! Evening gown with big hair-do, big make-up...... I had a great time watching beautiful people.. Hahahaha... The food was bad though. Not enough of supply.. I guess everyone wasn't full that night but just gave in as there were just too many people. But I guess if they planned it well, this case wouldn't happen, would it? I think it was the people that brought up the night. Yeah. Really. Masquarades and masks everywhere, even those which you saw in Halloween parties - hollow faces, scary faces... hehehee. I even saw an Ultraman mask! (walao-eh~~~!!)

I will upload some pics once I got them from friends. Take care y'all~

.: Hu hu hu... Sick :.

As title.......... Weather not good ah... everyone pls remember to drink LOTSA water, sleep early, dont eat too much of spicy stuffs.... ( that's what I didnt do so.. sick now). In the progress of recovering though. hehehhee =)

I cant fall sick!! Not on this Saturday!! I spent to make it up for this Saturday!!! It's my company annual dinner event. The theme of the night is Masquerade - yeah right, bet you can recall any scene from The Phantom Of The Opera. "Masquerade~~~ Paper faces on parade... masquerade... Hide your face so the world can never find you.." La la la ... LOVE this movie!!! I think the night will be grand... Hmm...... Will try to snap a pic of my mask and show it to you all here. Hehhehehe Bought it from I Need shop in Mid Valley ( chicky name, you know what shop is that hahaha ) I cant find it anywhere else ! Maybe I didnt go search hard enough. Anywayz, got what I want, new dress, new stilleto, new choker, mask........ All set!! So, you understand? hahah cant fall sick!!

Okie ! gotta go work. C ya all ciaoz~~

.: No Update :.

No update lately.. nothing much to write also except I got a holiday on 19th Sept and I took leave on Tue and today... That means I got a very long weekend hahahaah! Begin to feel lazy! Tomorrow resume working .... But I've got a nice working hour so .. Yeah I can still sleep till 9.30am ahahaha!

Fixed my cousin sis's PC this morning. They claimed that everything is gone but somehow I think it's just that they simply clicked everywhere and lost the shortcuts on the desktop, so they said " Jie... my computer seems to lose everything I want". ANYWAY.... FORMAT LA!!!! And now it's nicely done. I even save many MP3s for them, just copy and paste from CD...

Oh yeah I bought a jeans at PDI.. I bought a 'M' but it feels loose once I wear it for a whole day! I didnt know it is stretchable but ..... this "stretchable"?!?!?! Anywayz I dun think I'll feel comfortable in 'S' so just be it. So.... new belt coming! Hahhahahahaa!

Watched "The Land Of Dead" last Sunday. Not quite a worthy movie to be watched in cinema but there wasn't anything better. I'm anticipating Narnia and Harry Potter 4! Cant wait for December!!!!!

How did you spend your Autumn Festival? I spent it with someone special. Hehe.. And too bad the night was cloudy else I could have seen a very BRIGHT and ROUND ROUND moon!! Wasted... bumper!

Okie, friend's been complaining that I havent update this for a long time. So HERE IT IS ! NAH!!!!! And I'm done! Ciaoz~~!!

.: Busy!! :.

Lately am quite busy with few stuffs. Besides working in the company which I only get home at 10++ pm daily. I also helped out previous company to do some part time at home. Main reason is to earn extra income.. And, I am invited to be part of my company annual dinner event people and my task is to produce a clip, a multimedia clip for the launching of the night. I told you guys that I did once for my department Reward and Recognition Award launching? My friend, Edwin got to get that annual dinner event for us to work on. BUT, I think you guys also can know that this time it is getting much more serious ! I'm gonna die ........ ( Am not a Multimedia expert lor... pls bare with my lousy workpiece...... T.T ) Will try my best !!!!!!

Besides that, I just feel that time passes so damn fast. I basically need to occupy myself during weekend to do things that I cant do on weekdays a.k.a have fun. Yeah, I miss hanging out with friends..... I kinda missed out alot for the past 9 months, which I dont wish to continue like this anymore. I got something and I lost something. And now I'll let go the thing I got for all this while and back to the things I lost.. I want to get them back. About the one that I let go.... I'm selfishly to only look at myself. But it is difficult to continue like that and I'm changing into someone whom I'm afraid and I'm not sure about. I was slowly losing things and people. Only at 1 night, I realized that I cannot do it anymore. It's an ass-pain if it continues to drag longer and longer that it only hurts ..... eventually.

.: Untitle :.

When something is gone ..it is gone.

.: La la la :.

Another week has gone. Here comes Monday. Sometimes I feel nice that I'm such filled up everyday but the time passes so fast without me even realize I'm like missing things in life. But so far, I still keep close touch with family since I'm really losing time to talk with them especially my parents. So I tried to make it up for them during weekend. Other than that, friends .... I miss them, I should really find a day to catch up with them.

I miss you all much !! *muaks!!!*

.: Nothing much :.

Cut my hair..... It is quite strange that everytime I go to do my hairdo I'll be end up looking very young!! (DUH!!!) If you dont believe you can ask friends around me .... Some even said I look like a student!!!!! Anywayz, great to have hair cut.. feel better now.

.: Another week :.

Time flies in an unbelievable speed. I cant imagine the week soon ends like this, so fast. What have I achieved in this week? Hmm... lesser errors. Hahahahhaaa! Well, I know my "head" is kinda a hard stuff to serve but I can handle it. I wont let her thinks that she's right all the time! But well of course I know the politics around... I'll just do what my best and feel comfortable with the things I do. gam ba teh!!!

.: dum dee dum... :.

My dad can resume working! Hehehe I can tell he's so happy about it becoz he is so bored at home. I'm glad he can now do whatever he wants, but need to watch out the diet. Happy :)

Work is alright.... being a subordinate of coz will be "advised" here and there when mistakes are made but I can take it coz am still new. Hehe... colleagues are all very nice, in fact they are all very very funny! I can see being in the international and well known company is an advantage for me to learn, the facilities are of coz better as it needs to serve 2000 people. Cut cost is 1 of the issue though as they also gotta serve 2000 people.. Lolz.... But anywayz it's quite alright. I can spend my time real fast week after week without realizing it..... Hmm bad thing or good thing?

Nothing special... Hope you all take care, drink lots of water, if no important matter dont stay outdoor for so long k... Wish you all healthy. I miss you, for whoever you are~! Hehehee

.: Attitude :.

I realize my attitude of things had changed in these 2 years. I've become more bold to speak out whenever am not satisfied - I was pretty like a lamb for all the years.

So it happened to be that one night I was sleeping so soundly - the only night that I could sleep without flupill as my nose was not stucked anymore. Then I was awaken by noise around 3++am.... MAN..... and it happened to be that the mother & daughter of next door were quarreling. The daughter always the loudest regardless whether it's her fault or not. It already happened for 10 years, when they quarrelled it feels like they are gonna bring down the house. Okay, so I was awaken, I heard her voice scolding her mom for I dunno what reason. This aint the 1st time they quarrelled during midnight! I already promised myself if this happens again I'm gonna do SOMETHING. So I walked to the window I could hear even clearer... Her voice's amplitute and frequency were VERY VERY high and it irritated me!! So I said "Can lower your volume?" in Cantonese. 1st time I think they heard it but they just didnt give a damn. I heard nothing's changed so I spoke louder with greater dissatisfaction. This time they heard - else they thought who's talking!DUH! And so I back to my bed knowing they lower their volume, and I heard door banging not long after that, I think they stopped and went to bed... Now, It maybe embarassing if I see them.. maybe they are the ones who are embarassed. I dont care - for so many years of education they didnt know quarrelling also must choose time and control the volume?

2nd case, I went to shopping yesterday coz I deparately need a new pair of slacks. And I hope I could get 1-2 shawls becoz they make me look more lady-like while working... (duh~) . So I came to this stall where they sell scarfs and shawls. I saw the ones hanging are RM50 for 2. But I wasnt attracted by them but the ones folded. So I looked at them and thought what color I wanted. The promoter saw me standing there she walked to me, silent. Looked at me looking at the shawls and seemed like preparing to serve a difficult customer while actually I am not. So I picked 1 shawl and see if the color is nice. Mom helped me pick the color too. The promoter is a very particular person I think - for EVERY PIECE of shawl I took she folded and put back with a very annoyed kind of face. I mean if you can imagine the situation. Okay fine I tried to understand if this is something she must do - TO INSTANTLY FOLD BACK EVEN WHEN A CUSTOMER IS PICKING. I already helped her to fold it but she refolded it when I passed back to her. I saw the face of hers so I passed back whichever I took and said " Hmm I think I let you do the folding" with a smile on my face! She not only folded the one I took she even re-folded the one which is below it! So I thought of buying 1, I asked her how much is it coz I know the hanging ones are RM50 for 2 but I am not sure wherether the folded ones are also the same. She pointed at the price card without saying ANYTHING. What the *doot*! For that moment I was pissed and I wanted to ask her if she was having sorethroat, having menstrual pain or she is mute! Forgive me for being mean but I really didnt like that kind of look on her face! I told my bro about it and we joked about it:

Me: For that moment I should have said "sorry, I cant read(uneducated), can you tell me pls?"
cK : YEAH! Or maybe, " Sorry I cant read, can you.... OOps, are you mute?"

Long-winded story... but I enjoyed it hahahahahha Imagine I really said that, I wonder how she would react? Would we quarrel there for everyone to see? If the daughter fought back would we have our own quarrel in the middle of the night..... Lolz.....

Interesting..... ~~

.: Ready, Get Set, GO! :.

At last am done with the induction training and process training. A very intensive training was given to me which is supposed to be a 2 weeks but I only had 3 days. So it was very dull, packed, dry classroom lectures. Fortunately the trainers are kinda friendly and fun, so we did have fun too. Or maybe there are 3 ladies in the class so they are abit linean... Hmm.. anywayz, tomorrow is the official start day of my work, on the floor. I hope I can learn well and cope fast. ^^

One thing happened that I kinda need compromisation - I gotta compromise with a different shift which is from 12pm-9pm. I actually dont really like it so much becoz I feel like my whole day is wasted. But as you all know I also tend to think alot of positive things too to cover back such as : I can wake up abit late, enjoy my brunch at home, see my mom and dad longer, iron clothes in the morning, watch MTV abit before I go out; then I'll have my early dinner, so much so people said early dinner helps in losing weight hahah Then I think it's a benefit for me mwahahahhahaa, then I can meet with my fella induction friends who are working from 8pm-5am! This is very exciting becoz I do miss them alot. Nah, and then, when I go back, I think the traffic around Puchong area had already loosen, I can avoid traffic jam and when I reach home it'll be about 10pm. Enjoy some fruits or light snack, shower then can watch a movie before sleep becoz I dont need to wake up so early the next day~ ! Ehem, am I being too idealistic already? hahahha But I believe everything happens for a reason. If am chosen for this shift then so be it, I'll try to find the fun of it and I think I'm gonna meet with other great colleagues.

So far I'm seperated from Wendy but I think she'll do fine. I've spent 3 days with 2 new friends I met and we had fun.

So work has finally get serious. I'll do my best to learn and perform. Lastly, congratz to all GF0461COm fellas coursemates as we've got our result. I believe we did fine and I'm looking forward to see you guys on convocation!