.: It feels nice to develop something that works :.

It's been sometime since I last wrote anything. Been busy with my own stuffs since few days back. I fell, it felt lousy, panic, nervous, heavy .. so I took a piece of paper and a marker pen and I wrote for myself: "Jia u! (boat will be straight when comes to the bridge)!! gam ba de!!". And I sticked the paper on the wall right infront of me. My mom laughs at me, my bro said I'm crazy. But this own-consolation does work. I am self-encouraging. So I'm standing up again. I got an expert to guide me for doing my FYP and I really thank him thounsand times. And I thank the friend who introduced me this helper.

I start doing the parts which I'm good at. And so far they are progressing and I feel good about it. Although the consequences are I'm maybe falling sick now coz I'm feeling uncomfortable, it feels superb to see it running without errors. Guess I should go to bed early tonight for tomorrow's workload.

To my friends, thank you for your support. I will do my best, at least to the extend that I have no regret. *hehe* Gam ba de !!

2nd pic I took, found a better view. See the square in the middle? There's where the emperium is (a gold rock which decideds the castle belongs to whom if one can hit it). We won, again :)

The pic is taken after RO guild war ended. We lost the one we conquered previously but gained a new one at the last minute. nyek nyek nyek~~

.: The 1st joke I made in Year 2005 :.

Hmm.. so it happened when Daniel, Wendy and I were talking in the class. Daniel went back to hometown during holiday so he was telling us about the jokes he and his friends made back there. So he was talking about Clayton, who mistaken Tiger as the representative animal for Leo (as you all know, Leo is lion) when he was asked what's his horoscope. Here's the conversation:

Daniel: "Ey you know got once we asked about Clayton what's his horoscope, his horoscope is Leo but he said "Tiger" instead of Lion. Then me and Louise so blur and we laughed. Louise said "I'm the goat on the hill", and I said "I'm the fair goat in the household". "
Wendy & Jae: "hahahahahah, tiger...."
Daniel: "Yeah..silly"
Jae: "Hahaha then I'm the monkey on the tree"

Wendy & Daniel stunned for a while, looked at me one of a kind...

Jae: "what? Monkey is on the tree mah~~~" and I looked back at them wondering what's wrong..After a few secs...

Wendy:"Jae, we're talking about the horoscope here, what's up with the monkey?"
Jae: "OOPS!!!"

And there both of them laughed at me hysterically, I laughed at my blur-ness. What? Hey he was talking about TIGER and GOAT and they are 2 of the 12 lunar animals, what's wrong if I say MONKEY! Can't believe I fell for that. grrrr... LOLZ. I laughed till I cried. I really think if I dont have Wendy and Daniel, my APIIT life would be EXTREMELY boring. I hope they feel the same about me? *hahaha!* Yeah ... But I dont know why I'll always be the one (almost everytime) that creates jokes. Well, a good start for the year, I think. :)

Current mood: ready to be massively occupied
Current music: 98.8 fm on radio

The WOE on Saturday, 1st Jan 2005. We got a castle at last too. It was taken by others, but thanks to our powerful players, we got it back. nyek nyek nyek! ~*Companions*~ might suck, but it kicks butts!

The 2nd castle we conquered on the following WOE event on Wednesday... We got it in the very last minute. Haha! Lucky assses ..

The first WOE I attended using my own character and we won a castle. Nice. :) It's Christmas night.

.: 受了点伤 :.

My love 晚安
就别再为难 别管我会受伤
想开 体谅 我已经习惯
不然又能怎样
这个城市太会说谎
爱情只是昂贵的橱窗
沿路华丽灿烂 陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当
竟然以为你会不一样
但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷 虚构出的温暖
没理由能撑到天亮

前进 转弯 我跌跌撞撞
在这迷宫打转
死心 失望 会比较简单
却又心有不甘
这个城市太会伪装
爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后 却把灯忘了关
让梦作得太辉煌

以为能够留你在身旁
但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫好聚好散

别说你对我感到愧疚
别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走
请你不要安慰我

My love 晚安 别放在心上
我只受了点伤
只是受了点伤

.: Another long, cold night :.

Listening to "Shou Le Dian Shang", by Ah Sang. To those who wants to know about it, I posted it last week, just go to Archive or scroll down, you may see what the song's about. A special one introduced this song to me. For the first time I heard it, I was touched by its lyrics.... I'm amazed that it can actually make me cry over it. Just because the lyrics is too sad. And I started to wonder why a person like him would listen to this type of song....

Done a small part of coding .... lazy to on the ORACLE service now so I guess the testing I'll leave it for tomorrow. My progress on FYP is okay. I'm trying to speed it up. Although there are consequences like I'll be very tired and might fall sick, in fact I am sick now... Got a serious throat infection that for every saliva I swallow it hurt like a knife cutting through my throat. I couldnt stand the pain anymore thus I seeked for doctor's help. I'm getting better, the medicines work quite well. I'll try not to do last-minute work, though I feel I'm lagging now. So gotta work double, maybe triple sometimes. I might have to sacrifice some fun time during CNY. Well it's only for a year... if I can spare more time for the project I can really enjoy every minute after I submit it.

Suddenly feel abit lonely ... but well I got enough things for me to worry.. Why bother the loneliness eh?

Current mood: bored
Current music: "So Much For My Happy Ending" -- Avril Lavigne

.: Merry merry Christmas, Lonely lonely Christmas? :.

This song has been in my head on the day of Christmas eve. It's by Eason Chan, right?

I spent the eve with family. We will celebrate Christmas eve together every year. Been telling them to spare the night for dining out. So they did. We went to Mid Valley, was thinking to dine at the Chillies, but when we reached there, we gotta wait for an hour coz the queue was just too long. Never mind, thought of trying something new, so we went to San Francisco Steak House. The surrounding is really not bad. We couldn't escape from the queue, though. Even if you had reserved table, you still gotta wait for your turn. I was kinda syiok looking at those couples who thought they own the world with reservation name, pif, Queue please mister. The food is fine, the environment is nice. We enjoyed it together.

And I spent my eve alone at home, sitting at my desk, working on the translation jobs that I got (so to earn couple extra bucks) while listening to my favourite music. Didnt feel bad or whatsoever, I prefer a silent night for the eve, and to the count down. I sent out wishes to friends, and I got the most valuable one at 12midnight sharp. And know what, from the party pack, I decorate my doggie doll with a raindeer hairband and party mask, and I put on Santa hat myself. Haha trying to have some feel of Christmas (though we are not Christians). Maybe when I'm affordable next time, I will buy a Christmas Tree and decorate it for Christmas. Hehe. Whoever that went out to rave the night, had fun? Hehe Bet you all did. *smile*

And on Christmas, nothing's really special, except I had a good game playing RO in the evening. It's War Of Emperium and seemed like everyone didnt really celebrate Christmas(no life?!?! lolz), a lot of guild members were online and so we went for the war. Nice game! Had a fun time. Hopefully there's more fun coming in!

New year is coming !! Time flies eh... so fast it's 2005 soon(getting' a year elder, again! >.<"") I wish everyone a Happy 2005, may you fulfill all your new year resolution, and hope next year is a good year! CHEERS!!

All the ladies !!!! hehehe..
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Koh Sing and I. She drove me to the hotel that night. Hehe, She's a great friend !
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All my ex-collegues.. Hehe Guys from left:Ling Howe, Kenneth, Jin Jun; Girls from left:Hui Cher, me, Koh Sing, Mei Lan(bride's maid)
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The 2nd gown of the night.. .. nice nice ..
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This is the bride ... BEAUTIFUL leh !!!!!
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in my friend, Jennifer & Shaun's wedding night, I helped out at the entrance hehe, beside me is Sook Fei, Jenn's friend.
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.: Confession :.

Alright, promise will write a confession so here I begin. ( I hope I can be honest for all the things I said lolz)

~**My Love... that faded**~

Started from the beginning when I saved and saved money for a trip to Australia. It was my first oversea trip that I went myself. Excited, anxious, happy(coz I got to see the one I missed for months).. and I love the new experiences I had while staying there for a month. Sydney, a beautiful city and the places I'd been to -- natural beauty. Something is gained something is lost. I lost the love I had when I'm back. Maybe I dont love him enough. Maybe I'd changed. Distance relationship is never easy, but maybe like I said, I dont love him enough. So I cant bare with the difficulties. I have a very bad habit --- wouldn't say it's bad or good, maybe in different context, it's bad, but it's also good that I can do it: I'm very good in letting something's gone, be gone. I'm sorry for the hurts I've created for him. I wish he'll have a happier life and lately I heard that he's been doing good in both study and business. All the best to him.

~**My Friends... that hooked with cable wire**~

Been clinged myself to an online game since March. ( wow, so it's been 9 months I've been playing it ). I got to know friends who are funny, friendly, and we even become real life friends. I'm glad I can have friends like them. Dont underestimate their knowledge in the game, I got lots to learn from them. Haha. Why I love the game so much? It's just a game anyway. Well, it's online, so there are many players. Players play their characters in the game, directly reflecting their own attitude and characteristics. This is what I learn. There are scammers, not only scamming uber items or zenies(money in the game), but also maybe scamming hearts in the game. But, I'm glad the friends I know are all truthful, genuine, and worth to be called friends. And friends who are in Brunei, wow God knows if not because of the game would I ever know anyone from Brunei? The chance is thin, yeap. I'm lucky enough to know them, and may our friendship continues to blossom.

~**My Friends ... that are surrounding me**~

What can I say about the friends I have. Always I think I'm lucky. I dont have MANY friends but the ones I have, they love me. I try my best not to disappoint any friends, but if I did and I wasn't been told, I'm sincerely sorry, please forgive me. I wouldn't want to hurt you, but if I did, I didn't mean it. I'd talked craps, I'd shown faces, I'd shown temper, I'm glad you all are still there when I need y'all. I very wish to withhold you all until I breathe my last breath. To all my friends, Thank you for the friendship. I'll cherish them. And hope you all are happy to know me. *hugz*

~**My study ... my responsiblity**~

Next year is my last year of studying. Soon I'll be graduating with a degree. I must confess that I'm a lazy bone. I know what I should do, and I know I can do better if I'm more hardworking. I guess the new year wish should enclose with this -- hardworking. This year so far, I've been doing okay in studies. Scored with a satisfying result, made my parents proud. The feeling is great. Always have the bad habit of studying in the last minute. Should have changed this attitude. *hehe, say is always the easiest*

~**My Life ... should I hope for a better one?**~

Life is a treasure -- be alive when you ARE alive. My headshot. Been saying Life is Beautiful, so live to the fullest. I'm doing my very best for that. Treasure everyday, but it seems like I take everyday for granted. I'm lucky enough to have what I have now. I should be grateful. I have what I love, I am at where I'm most protected. There is really nothing more to complain. I should plan my future, though. Right now it's all plain. I don't know where to head to. After finish studying, it's time to really learn what life is, I guess. Responsibilities come. And pressure comes with responsibilities. Running away or avoiding it will do nothing better I think. So face it, bold to carry it, and resolve it, and I'll have more to complain at that time, haha!

wait a minute, am I doing confession for all this while? Er.. please tell me if this ain't a piece of confession. I just write what's on my mind. And now I don't know how to close it with a good ending. *stupid!* I guess .... just say bye?

~**Bye**~

.: Flu....... :.

Yeah it's still with me. Better I guess. I think the Vitamin C Plus that I took really does help? The day I knew I had flu, I had the hardest time sleeping at night. The next day, I took Vitamin C Plus and yeah it helped. Feel much better. Thanks zoe, Joo and chao learn for your concern. :)

Current music: Rain drops
Current mood: bored

And... tada ~~~!!! This is after. Cute? Hehehe I'm in pink dress. Nice !!!
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This is ... before I change job to High Priestess. CrimsonLiang was beside me hehehe. Looks cool in the cowboy hat eh?
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