.: My Hero :.

You're always a brave man in my life,
Smile is never lost seen on your most graceful face
Even though there are tough times in our life;

You always beat the challenges by yourself,
This time you're not alone,
we'll fight together with you, dad;
You've beaten the most difficult times,
this is just like a snap of finger. You can do it!

You have the biggest heart and God wont take that away from you,
and from us;
Life is beautiful, dad, and you'll taste the beauty of it again soon.


"Sir, I want to see a brave man walking around the site with commanding power.I miss you alot, come fast. Until that I pray to my God for your good. Ur bro, Rajesh" -- Rajesh, my dad's colleague sent SMS to his phone.

.: Hmm... Work lu :.

To be honest I had a slight disappointment when I didnt get the call from HDPM the day I finished my final interview with them whilst Wendy received their call just a few hours after that. I'm happy for her that she gets the offer ^^. On the other hand, I myself thought maybe I'd done some mistakes during the interview that caused me to miss the offer. However I feel it's a normal process that everyone will go through when looking for jobs. You're choosing also you're being chosen. So, I tidy up my mood and look for another while working on the part time job.

The next day I dragged my butt to work because I still feel uneasy at my stomach. Then I got a call from HDPM. For a moment I thought it's gonna be a reject call. But the person on the line told me I got through and I'm offered a job called Security Processing Data Maintenance (SPDM) -- what the heck it is?!?!?! As far as I'm concerned my job is different from Wendy.. Hmm I dont have any idea how come I'm offered this job ( maybe I'm not good enough but they do need people ... lol). And I dont know what I do being this position... Hahaha! So I decided to give it a try. I get positive response from parents and my ex-supervisor asking me to just go ahead and learn some experience, if really not happy and I dont learn anything then I can leave and seek for another job. The salary is quite low but I can accept that for being a fresh grad. I dont know how much I worth, do you? Hahaha so for being a newbie I'm ready to put aside the money issue and just gain some experience. Moreover it's quite a huge company, maybe I'll taste some salts and sour but it's alright. Society comprises many kinds of people, you wont know when you're gonna get it, so as my God-brother said :"STAY LOW(profile)" . He also told me 2 rules:

Rules no.1 : BOSS is ALWAYS RIGHT.
Rules no2 : If you think you're RIGHT, remember Rule no.1 : BOSS IS ALWAYS RIGHT.

I feel like kicking him at his butt....

So, okay. I'll start on Monday. I went for a medical check-up yesterday with Wendy and YES I'm totally healthy. I felt like I'm a total idiot when doing the medical check-up because I've never had one!!! But it was quite a fun experience for me hahahahhaa. Luckily I had Wendy with me or else I really looked like an idiot.

I get to know that Wendy and Daniel are sick too. Take care ya both of you. Dan, how's the feeling of going bowel the entire day? Hahaha dont eat oily food.

OK will stop here. Tell you guys more next time.

.: A Sudden Strike :.

I'm just recovered from illness that striked me suddenly 2 nights ago. I guess it had to do with the place I was seated in the office that day - It was horribly cold, it was freezing! My nails were purple in color!!!! And I think I must have got the cold air into my stomach that made me poo-ing the entire day yesterday! What went in, came out right after that. Terrible. I even puked in the morning but as my stomach was empty for the entire night, I ended up puking air. SOB.....

And because I've got a final interview this morning I got to take medicine so I could wake up, smile, energetic and walk! And so I did, popped few pills - pain killer as I was having terrible migraine and the one that stopped me from poo-ing.... Hehehehehe. I even drank Ho Yan Ho herbal tea. And I went to sleep. It worked. This morning I feel good again! And few minutes later I've gotta drive out to pick up Wendy and head to HDPM for a final interview. I think I'll accept this job if I could get it and work for the time being, and I will be looking out for opportunities too if I find this job is not what I want. :) So, if I quit this in the future and look for a new job, I still got some pennies to spend so it's not like I have nothing, compare to now. Hehehehe, wish me luck *wink*

To the friends who're employed, happy working; to those who havent and even havent started to look for one, take some rest, spend some free time to do the things you enjoy doing and all the best!

Fingers crossed ....... It's either I go to IGB building(Midvalley) tomorrow and for the week after until I find a permanent job, or I ask parents for car next week onwards, to drive to Cyberjaya... hahaa!!!

.: Decision to make :.

Writing this post at the office during lunch hour--I was seated at the corner so I have the least attention. QUite a nice place to sit as no one cares what am doing, except that I have to report to my head end of the day... Even my ex-supervisor JEnnifer forgot to call me out for lunch since I was seated in different place today. Anywayz, work has been OKAY.. quite boring. What I did is just charting, checking report, recruting and filter respondents... so far that is all.

I've been offered a job as Global Support Executive (NICE NAME!!) in HDPM (a HSBC group) at Cyberjaya -- as back-end data processing officer I think. If I'm through for the final interview, I'll be working for Taiwan continent who yeah, processes data for Taiwan HSBC customers, deals with Taiwan HSBC bankers though. As I said, a back-end. So I'll never need to speak with the customer I presume. Salary is 1.5-1.8k .. Working hours is perfectly normal (9-6pm) as others who work for UK or US would have to stay up while people are going to bed. I've been troubled by the salary and job scope, I wonder would it be interesting and well-paid. My parents and Jennifer, even Dan babe said go ahead and do it as I'm fresh grad, being with HSBC gives me a better background. But I have another job offer as a Java Programmer which is still pending now and I got a decision to make on next Wednesday! I hope I can have an answer from the other job before next Wed, so it'll be easier for me to make decision. It's quite troubling as human always hope for better. But would I regret for what I missed -- this is the most terrifying feeling. I certainly dont wish to be 1 of the unemployed in Malaysia, but looking at offers I feel that I deserve better? Greedy? Or maybe..... just fit into this job in HDPM, spend 6months-1 year to collect experience, and aim for transferring to different department in HDPM after that, or head outside for a better place. You guys please gimme suggestions and advices. Thanks a million!!

.: Sien :.

I wanna grow mushroom liao....... maybe become spidergirl coz I got all webbed up and perhaps will be biten by any strange kind of spider......zzZZZzzzz. Any suggestion how to spend free time?

.: You'll miss my "Stepping" alryte~~~ :.

Out today for a movie with pals -- Wendy, Zoe, Daniel, YinChew, SoonFeei, KingKo...We watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith. I have to say it's WHOA!! WHOAAAAA!! WHOOOOAAAA!!!! I mean, despite the fact that you drool over Mr.Brad for his charms and sexuality( so appealing!!!), I drooled over Ms.Angelina for her beauty, provocative , lustious and sexy appeal too. She's just so stunning, ya know. I always like her.... a bit of evilish here and there.. NICE!

Anywayz we had fun watching the movie. Laughed alot. It was terribly cold though. I was freezing as I sat at the other end of the row, I could feel the wind was blowing right to my body. My fingers felt numb when it finally finished. And god knows how many times I shiver because of goose bumps. Whoa.. it was killing.

After that, planned to go sing Karaoke but they wanted to get home earlier to pack things for a trip to Redang tonight. Nice one. So okay we suggested to go another time, certainly it's after they're back from the trip. So to everyone who joins in the trip, have a great time there, enjoy the sun shine enjoy the crystal clear ocean. Breathe the air for me ya. haha! Becareful also. To Zoe babe I wish you'll get well soon. *Love yaz*

And oh.. erm.. Daniel always seems to be the one who's been bullied all the time. By whom? By ..... afew of us hahahahaha. But hey, not everyone has the chance oo and look at you, You ENJOY it! I know it got sour and painful at times, but WE DO LOVE YOU. You'll miss all our teasings. I can tell, as I will miss urs too. So, yeah keep the charm, stay cool, stay handsome. *wink*

I' continue my Kill Bill2. Kick ass!

.: An End, A Beginning :.

Yoohooo~~~ Allow me to cheer for a while. I'm graduated! Final exam is over and I'm free like a bird~~~~~ (nah, dont remind me of looking for a job now, as I just emailed to a friend and my interview date will be arranged soon!) NOW, MY MOVIES!! I'M COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So the last 3 papers have come to an end... Life for studying has ended. Gonna have a short break before another journey of life. I really wonder how would it be. No matter how, I'll do my best. It's how I wanna make my life right now.

Happy. happy. happy.

Oh yeah, met Eugene aka Jetyr in APIIT today. Nice meeting ya. Take care. And enjoy the cruelty of APIIT mwahahahhahahahaha!!!!

.: I’M-HOLIER-THAN-THOU BLOGGER’S BATON :.

Another tag..... grrriirrr.. and this time is even more fun (ya ryte~). I got tagged by two friends : Dan and Eugene

OK here it goes:

1. The last blog I read was: Joo's "Don't Worry Be Happy"

2. I think my blog is way better than the blog above because: ...... I dont think so. Hmm if wanna compare.... OK my blog is more to my life e.g. what's up with my life right now, for everyone who's close or not close with me i.e. those in oversea studying and working and those who havent seen me for quite a long time. My blog is to keep them aware and know what's happening in my life right now.

3. In my honest opinion the best entry I have every blogged is: .: Sh*t Luck Go Away :. hahahha because look at my comments!!! It hits over 30 a night!! Hahahaa. And well I've got flames sparking around on that night and I can see the biggest flamers were having much fun -- I think it did help release some real life pressure there. Just scold whoever you dont really know. And the scolding and insults went "cheaper" and "cheaper". LOLZ.

4. 5 Blogs I read that may be better than mine:
Daniel -- Loaded with funny stuffs and pics. Nice layout. Compact.
Jetyr -- Simple, straight forward, nice.
Wimal -- Funny, fun to read.
Jenny (my mui mui) -- Always a heart-touched whenever I read her blog. Real.

5. I know my readers are addicted to my blog because: I dont ACTUALLY think so coz I dont update it quite often.And... I'm not funny enough...I'm not bitchy enough .. I'm not opened enough to quite alot of things. Because.... maybe I still think this is a public place so.. something is still better to be kept private. Haha. That is why I said the above mentioned blogger's blogs are way better than mine.


OK... finished. MY TURN!!!! nyet nyet.. see who I can pass the baton to:
Derrick
Jenn
Dennis
Joo
.............. I;'ve been tagged by two persons, so lucky I was, which made me cannot pass to either one of them now..... NVM. I guess that's it. Sorry gals and guys, gotta do this >.<"" !!!

.: *RIP* Love Always -- Fishy :.

My dad found out that his MOST beloved goldfish died in the aquarium this morning (08.06.2005 morning). He told mom about it.. Both of them were sad and heartache. He's been with us for 1 year. He was so huge now....... and tamed.

My dad told me in the afternoon when we were heading to bank. "1 year already, Wei." He sounded sad. He sighed. I've never seen my dad felt that sad -- well he was totally sad when my grandma passed away 7 years ago. Nothing else had really got him into so low. I felt sad seeing my dad sad. And I know how much he loved his pet.

It happened to be he was killed by his own species - a young, untamed, naughty, new family. He was hurt. He was in pain that he couldnt eat. And my mom said he died because of few days didnt eat. She's regret that they didnt separate him and medicate him.

I helped my dad finding a good container ... I suggested to bury him in the garden but my dad was clear-headed, he said he may got rotten and the worms may damage the plants we have in the garden. So we found a plastic container and put him inside. I didnt see where my dad put him...... Well, dad said he's gotta buy a new one this weekend. He maybe sad, but he isn't discouraged. That's my dad --- always a brave, loving, warm-hearted and cheerful man.

I think I'll follow him to the petshop this weekend. :)

.: Music Baton :.

I..... have been tagged by Daniel (ggrrrrrr.... it's quite fun though) Here I go.

Total volume of music files in my computer: 3.8GB of MP3s and 1.08GB of MTVs

The last CD I bought: I... cant remember. I think it's LP's [Reanimation] (whoa that's darn long time ago!!!!)

Song playing right now: None. Not quite in the mood yet.

Five songs that I listen alot and mean alot:
1. Evenenscence - My Immortal: the 1st song that made me cry over it without any reason. JUST SAD.

2. Linkin Park & Jay Z - Numb/Encore: COOL, COOL, COOL!

3. Leo Ku - Midley ( Geng Ko Kam Kuk): Simply marvelous but long winded. A collection of nice songs in one.

4. Ah Sang - Ye Zi (Leaf): the other song that made me cry... A very quiet song. Nice.

5. Akon - Lonely: I like the "chipmunks" voice. Very cute.

Okay time to be evil....
Five people to whom I pass the baton to:

Wimal
Jenn
Chew
Derrick
Dennis

Enjoy~~!!!

.: Finally...... :.

Everybody, everyone, finally, I AM GRADUATING SOON!!!! Wow.. can't believe this day is arriving. Nice feeling, just abit not used to it as there will be no more assignment!! (DUH!!!!!) Well I know, more society academic assignments, I can sense it (Started to play Star Wars JEDI Knight lately so... Hehe) . Anywayz, byebye study in institute, hello to the institute of society.

I still remember the 1st day I stepped into APIIT KL. I didnt know anyone, the first person I approached were a few Indian girls, befriended them..... then, I knew Jenny, who's my beloved sis now... and I eventually got more and more friends. Wendy, Shay Ker, Jenn and I were the noisiest girls in the class, I guess. I still can remember Ker's laughter. Wendy... now only I realized this small girl got a large voice!!!! And man.. she can REALLY talk!! Then I got to know Daniel, Eric, Derrick, Chang Chew... these few guys been hanging out with us so we were like 8-10 ppl in a gang most of the time. Imagine the noise. But it was fun.

A year passed by... Some left to a better place to continue their study or work. But still we had fun during higher dip.. and remember those who played game overnight and slept in the class.. lolz. But still, last-minute-enterprise still worked.

Now, the closest we got are Daniel, Wendy and I. And we got to know some new friends - Zoe, Chew, Chao Learn, KingKO, Soon Feei, etc. Yoong and Min Yin are with us too. Then this time as there are few more jokers around, we really had a fun time laughing. And of course, we struggled alot for FYP.. All shared the worries and encouraged each other. Especially during MidPoint meeting, and FYP Final Presentation. We even got mental support haha. Nice moments. And I believe in the working world there wont be any pure hearts as what I'm having now. So... :) Cheerz. And be brave to the challenges outside.

Today is my daddy's birthday. Happy Birthday DAD. My aunt and family is here. SO her lil' baby girl Crystal is here... cute, lovely, spoiled baby. Hehe. Cant wait for her to grow up.
And as for my dad, I wish for you to be healthy always, happy, cheerful, charming as you always are. Love you. *hugz*

.: New month new Beginning :.

May is gone, at last. Lots of things happened in May. Just hope this month is slowly turning everyone's luck to be better. Happy ones continue to be happy; Sad ones throw away the sadness and become happy again; Angry one be forgiven and move on with life; Wrong ones learn from mistakes and forgive ownself and also, move on with life. Life is aint just about these my buddies. Life with this add-on to some spice though.

.: Sh*t Luck Go Away :.

Nothing really special happening in my life right now, at least, happy ones are not happening. Perhaps last week I stepped onto dog sh*t or cat sh*t or crow sh*t or whatever sh*t it is, luck wasnt been good and God wasnt been kind to people that I care.

Conflict happened a week ago between me and my friend. Over what you'd ask. Over a game. Yes, silly eh? But maybe we devoted too much onto a game that sometimes things that we do hurt the other party. I'm so sorry if I did anything that hurt all my virtual friend( Some have become real life friends now). But I truly hold on to a principle that is you think before you speak/act. And I try to work it in my life. This is what adults do, right? Words that are spoken out of anger cant be taken seriously, BUT how much hurt it brought to the listener, you can't tell when you're angry. Would it be too late when you finally reliaze? You can't tell either. That is why I'd rather keep quiet and think and not say anything when I'm angry because I dont want to hurt anyone when I dont mean it. I speak out, but not using the anger words. Now that it is settled, is it totally settled? I dont know. We talked. Somehow now we dont talk like how we used to. Of course I miss those times. And sadly it involved my love one who cares and wanted to do something for me, ended up he got the sh*t on himself. I hate being in this difficult situation where both sides are people whom you really care. Things got complicated when your friends know about it. And people who dont know what the heck is really going on started to guess and think it is the way they think it is. Another lesson: Listen to both side's story before you make any judgement. Anything that is not clear and you want to know about it, stand up front and ASK. Gain a friend or a foe, you choose.

If I dont give a damn to anyone I wouldn't post this here. Why should I if I dont care? I learned something extended though. Words are really this powerful that it can either make you feel like in could 9 or make you feel so sh*tty as if you're worthless. Just, to everyone that I know, and knows me, take this to your heart: Think before you speak/act.

p/s: Just a piece of thought.

.: Happy Birthday To Me :.

~* Happy 25th Birthday *~

I kinda got a confused feeling about my birthday. Can't believe that I'm 25 y/o. I remembered I had once imagined what I'd be doing at 25 --- working. But now am still doing my last semester, well soon graduate though. Hehehe. And... I can't help it, the word "old" is slowly crawling towards me (hopefully it's not obvious on my face, YET) ... but Age is Just a # eh?

Thanks to all my babes and buddies who wished me on the day, and days before today. LOL. Somehow got a few of them remember my birthday wrongly. haha. But, early wishes are still GREAT!

Thanks to Daniel, Wendy, Zoe, Chew, KingKo, Kwong, MinYin, Dennis, Derrick, my lovely sweet sis Jenn and her sweetheart Ted and all the friends (in case I forgot to name them here) for wishing me "Happy Birthday". I'm really happy that some I dont even expect them to know but I got their wishes, thanks alot!

Thanks to RO buddies - Henzz who called me right after 12am midnight; He indeed gave me a surprise. Thanks Stitch for your SMS. And all the pals who left message on my MSN, I saw them this morning and wow, it felt great and it's certainly a terrific way to start my day.

Thanks to dear Anjo for your card and presents. They are sweet and valuable, and meaningful to me. I'll keep them well, I promise. *smooch* *smooch*

And lastly, thank you dad and mom for making my day a GREAT day. I got my dad's SMS this morning "Happy Birthday Dear" ..... very touching *sob*. And my mom bought me a cake without even letting me know! *kizz and huggiez*

~** Birthday Wishes **~

I wish for peace, safe, happy and healthy life for everyone I know. And I'm gonna start my working life soon, so LIFE IS JUST ABOUT TO BEGIN. I wish my love one will always be happy, for me will treasure and cherish you for as long as I live. Simple --- as it should be.

.: Should I or should not? :.

Dear all,
Sorry for the late late late update. Been quite lazy lately and been tied up by another project, again. Somehow it gets all lazy again when the most important thing is over. Yeah I'm talking about FYP being the most important thing. So the 1st modular project is handed up. Settled. Now there are another 2 projects. Documentation again - words, words and more words. *bumper*

About the headline - I was thinking to get a braise for my teeth. Though for all the times I take it as my trademark - you know, the two vampire teeth on the top row. Wendy said :"Dont! You'll be regret."; Daniel said :"But you'll look prettier after you are over it!"; Wendy said :" You cant french kiss for 2 years, babe." ...ggrrriiirrrr... It aint about the french kiss that holds my mind. But well it's about the charges and my working days are soon to be started. How well can I speak with a braise..... I am not sure but Wendy said it's kinda hard..Hard to sleep at night at first.. hard to eat...And will I be smiling "CHEEZE" with a braise? But quite alot of people do say I dont need it. So.... what do u all think?

.: Finally, life for FYP is over :.

Finally, I went for the presentation this morning at 9am. It didnt turn out to be a good news for me at first when I knew I am scheduled for today's morning. But think twice, it's actually a good thing, as I will have more time to set up my PC before presentation.

It was quite tension for me because the most worried is if the program doesn't work when you present it. And it happened!! WTH! Luckily both of my advisor and supervisor didnt sentence me a dead sentence when it couldnt work out perfectly. My advisor had alot of things to say.... mostly are saying my system is not very good.. and my supervisor didnt back me up. I wonder why... for all the friends who presented, their supervisor backed them up. But mine ..... haizz..... Never mind, I argued it myself ! Pif ! So just when I thought I'm just gonna be graded a so-so grade, at last my advisor said everything is good. Analysis is good, documentation of provess development is good. Hmm... really hope that I will do well.... =.= "" ...

OK, one main thing is done. Another 3 projects are awaiting..... help~~~~... Getting lazy @.@ hahahaha OK am out. Have a nice day everyone.

.: More and more reading :.

Reading is always not my thing since... well maybe can say it's not a culture in my growing environment as I wasnt taught to have a habit of reading since I was small. And I didnt start this habit when I went schooling. So I ended up a barely read kind of person. Hmm I did read,Megazine.. those trendy megazine that teaches you nothing more than fashion and make up and ... basically how to become an attractive female. (Yeah, I think that's the point of publishing those megazines to keep all the females up-to-date on what to wear, what to say, where to hang out, what to buy, how you behave etc *deep breath*) I'm quite a sucker for those last time becoz the information they provided is really compact! But... I wonder why I dont read them anymore? Spending most of my time in front of the PC should be the MAJOR cause.

As approaching the final semester.. I should say as studying the final year of the degree course, reading has become essential because we need to find information and knowledge in order to do our projects/assignments, which involved alot of reading! *bumper!* Sometimes I feel really lazy to read, but if I make up my mind for that, actually it does give me something I didnt know. It feels kinda nice. Hmm... I guess I would like reading if I start it now? zzZZZzzzzz....

There's something needed to be settled but needs alot of time ... Human and human communication is the hardest thing in the world. Don't you all agree? A slight misunderstanding may cause such a huge change in friendship. And if one of the parties is not into bringing it out and talk about it, it becomes real hard for the other party who wishes to clear the clouds. But maybe I just have to accept the fact that sometimes thing just had to be the way it is, for the sake of both.

OK.. jae off. Have a nice day everyone.

.: SING~~~~ till your lung drop :.

I'd been to Red Box with couple of friends on Thursday: Daniel, Wendy, Louise, Kingko, Yin Chew and Chao Learn came abit later. We basically started singing from 3-8pm..... 5 hours?!?!?! Wow now only that I realized. People say shop till you drop, I would say we sang till our lungs dropped. Really hard to imagine. Kingko has a good voice, and he knows alot of songs! Bravo. I sang till I almost lost my voice and the last thing I wanted to do when it was time to go home is to talk. It got better when I reached home.

I rarely went to karaoke last time, but once I joined Wendy once, I guess I've had interest in abusing people's ears hahahahaa. And guess what, I learn most of the new Cantonese/mandarin songs from karaoke. Thanks to Wendy and Zoe who chose songs that I dont know, and they had a great time there singing and me .... what could I do? Being a background supporter. NEVER MIND! I learn! And before they knew it, I could grab the mic over, open my mouth and sing (To keep the mic with ya, you gotta know the song sista!).... nyek nyek nyek. This is how I learn. And they will swing around the mic and say "Jae, go learn this song! Next time we sing together!" SO SWEET!!! Hahahahaha!!

It's pretty tiring to sing karaoke. I wonder why, merely singing. And it can work out your abs muscle, BELIEVE ME. Hehehe I think those who do sing in the karaoke know about this? Or just me being strange? Weirdo. Erm...Ya, it's tiring. But it feels nice hehehe a form of pressure release hahahaaha. And I found that singing Cantonese/Mandarin songs is way better and easier than singing English songs. I dont know why. It's like the Cantonese/Mandarin songs are created specially for karaoke. haha.

OK. Me off for now. Anyone wanna join us in the next karaoke session? Leave name. Ciaoz~

.: The day is coming :.

Got to know that my FYP presentation is schedule on the next Friday, 15/4/2005. Anxious, nervous -- which I'm not supposed to feel as I'd finished the work. But I need to bring my baby unit to present as all the software is installed into my uni already. Wish me luck *wink*

Lately I got to know that my coursemate Wimal has made a blog for himself. Quite an interesting one. I have a good time reading in his blog as his posting is funny hahaha. Good job Wimal.

Oh ya, about my hair cut. I cant really change any hair style I think. I got big round face so too short is not the best for me; Too long will make me look old. I have to keep them at a certain length above my shoulder -- but all the time a new hair cut makes me look like a teenanger.. Hahhaa which means YOUNGER. Muahahahaha! Not bad eh? nyek nyek.

I love and hate the class on Tuesday. Love it is because it finishes up early and I have the whole day ahead for myself; Hate it is ..... certainly is because I have to get up early that I missed the best time to sleep. Ish! Mom needed to go to the market so I gotta wait for her to come back and drive me to college......and that is why am typing away HERE!!!

OK, stop here. Will write more soon. Happy Tuesday everyone.

.: It happens again :.

On the midnight of 29th March 2005 ( I hope i got the date right ), when I was about to go to bed I felt an uneasy feeling about my chair and I felt dizzy after that. Then my bro was back from outside and we chatted a little, I saw a MSN message popped up on his screen and it was from my friend too with the message "Earth quake again!!!". And I got the same message right after that. She's from Penang. Then I realized the reason why I felt the strange move about my chair just not long ago. Was I being sensitive? I posted message to my friend who's in Melacca and he said he felt it too. I sent SMS to my cousin who's in Penang to ask if his family was okay over there, but there ain't any reply, I assumed he was already asleep as he's basically a busy man in the day. I prayed hard I'll get his reply as soon as possible.

The first thought on my mind was "Oh no... where again?" Would it be like the last time? Would the tsunami strike again and affect to Malay Peninsula like last time? I told my friend in Penang to make calls to her friends and relatives who's in Penang to not sleep too deadly, just in case there's another tsunami happens again. And I began to think the homes that are just rebuilt in Indonesia since the last tsunami, and the people who are not yet recovered fully from the last disaster, would they be able to take this strike again?

I went to bed worrying if there's another tsunami which would or would not come to Malay Peninsula.... I worried about my friend and relative in Penang. I woke up in the next morning and I checked the news in cnn.com . Yes there was an earthquake happened in Sumatera and it's rated 8.5. A scary one. I got my cousin's reply in the morning saying he's alright. And my friend in Penang sent me a SMS to tell me she's there is fine too. When I got home in the afternoon, as I was sitting on my computer chair doing some stuff, I felt the shake again. This time was even worse than the night before. My chair moved forward, backward and forward as if there's a force pushing from behind. Awkward! It has never moved like that before, I thought it was because of strong wind as my fan volume was 4. But I on the fan to volume 4 everytime so it is impossible. I walked out and asked my mom if she felt anything. She said yes, her chair moved too and the glass door beside her shook too. She thought it was because of strong wind as well. Then my only feeling was "Oh no... another time. This time is even worse. How are the people in Banda Aceh..." The feeling was so bad because you know earthquake wont start in Malaysia as we all learned in Geography during secondary school, but if we can feel it here, wouldn't it be serious in the happening place? But we can't do anything except giving donation afterwards. It felt lousy.

Well, I just pray that the people there will be fine. Helps and assists are continuously given to them. As for all of us here, really gotta learn to treasure the people around you because you dont know when you will lose them. And treasure everything that you're having now - comfortable home, undisturbed sleep, full meal, laughters and love. And be happy for what you've got now. PEACE.

.: Life after FYP :.

It's kinda relax...I'm getting lazier already although there are still 3 projects awaiting. I wonder if I can do them well.. all about business and there's one about network design. And I found that it's quite boring lately... Oh ya, I finally have some time to sit down quietly and watch TV without thinking the head-hammering problems which I need to solve regarding of my FYP. A very nice feeling haha.

It's time too for me to earn some money. I've contacted my ex-colleague and got to have some part time job. Not bad, at least can earn some extra pocket money to buy things, and to save for a trip after finishing the course.

Life is still the same, games that I play, people that I know, things around me. I'm getting tired very easily lately I wonder why.. Is this sign of aging? hahahahah I seriously hope not. I know I need a proper rest else I'll really look terrible. Other than this, I can have some fun playing game that I've hooked up to a long time ago. Get to know more people, also get to settle some communication problems, attitude problems etc. And guess what, I have topics to chat with my brother and we discuss things/problems about the people we know in the game too. It's not bad as long as we have something in common. At least I still know my brother's thinking and the way he solves troubles is still a correct one. I just give him some wise thoughts from time to time.

And I got to spend some time with family too. Chat with them -- which I've seldom done it for the past 5 months, at least. It feels nice, really nice.

.: This is the day :.

Today is the day I have to think is there anything else that I haven't do for my project. Because tomorrow is the submission day. I must admit that I'm darn a very clumsy person because I got some minor mistakes in my documentation that I overlooked but I already got them printed. Haha, but they are alright. I hope.

AT LAST!!!!!! Somehow I got lazy when the project period is so long. Like... I'll sometimes feel lazy and think, nah, I can still do it later/tomorrow. Then I'll get all so nervous and panic when find out something which is BIG and needed to be solved IMMEDIATELY! ( else I can't eat and sleep that night ) Though that thing can be solved a bit later, not such a urgent. I'm glad I started developing the system 3 months back. I still have time to debug and do coding for the parts which is not perfect when the due is like 3 days later. Of course my documentation is started about 2 weeks before the submission date. So I spend 1-2 days to finish 1 chapter of the entire report.

Overall I think I'd done it okay. I cant say perfect because I know there're flaws in the system. But that's all I can do with my ability. And before you can think of something else, hey, I know how to program into a Palm OS. Hahahaa, I can say that proudly. And, hey, I know how to make my Palm OS to coomunicate with my desktop.... hahaha though that's where the flaws are but.. Well I'd done my best so I have nothing to regret at all ( Mr.WIlliam Hung said that, it's very true indeed)

Other than that, maybe I dont know how to separate work and entertainment. I'd lost quite a lot of quality time I should have with family and friends. I'd lost touch with some fun/important happenings around the world. I even didnt know there's nice eating place around my area. I really need to do something about it.

Apart frm the final year project, I certainly need to do other subjects well in order me to score in the final year, as FYP is not the main thing to decide whether you'll get a first class or not( I seriously hope that ahahahah). It's been long since my last update. I always post pics as you all can see. I hope this pieace can tell you all how I am lately.... I feel extremely tired today. Maybe this is the after-tension-release-syndrome. Hehehehe.

Hehe our honeymoon after the wedding... the place is called Jawaii, only for couples oo ! Let's explore..

Nice place eh?? hehehe so I quickly snap one too.. aren't we lovely? nyek nyek..

Anjo: aiyo Romantic eh... lai sek sek sin...
Jae: hehe, romantic oo, love shape island ..

Jae: darl i heard there's honeymoon suite here...
Anjo: oh? lai, we go see see...

Anjo: hee hee... honeymoon suite eh... what couples do in honeymoon leh? *grin*
Jae: ohhh.. i know what u thinking ...gg

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Anjo: loupo ar.. this bed is more comfortable than the previous one .... *yawn*
Jae: heehee, yeah this bed is bigger.. OF COZ LA !!! dis room is more expensive!!

Jae: a pub ...let's try something ...
Anjo: ya ... let's see....hmm...

Jae: hahahaha ... drink la.. drink somemore..
Anjo: ey ?? awwwww this is fun, lai i want another time ...

Anjo:woohooo ... high ... lai ress me.I wanna order again...
Jae: lougung.. u see la, becoz of u, my wedding dress no more liao..

Anjo: yeah baby! come I want to try again.......
Jae: pif ... so like to drink !

Jae: Dont drink lor, see your face, so red already...
Anjo: oh~~~~~I ..feel... happy....

Jae: see.... 3rd time....
Anjo: hehehe.. ok la... loupo dont cry liao..

Jae: Time to go back lor...
Anjo: wait, kill this first...

So that ends our honeymoon trip to Jawaii.. A fighter will forever be a fighter eh? Never let go a monster... lolzzz

~**This day marks the destiny of ours. Our hands are held tightly and our hearts are one. Thank you for loving me for who I am. With you by my side, I shall never be alone in the adventure of Rune Midgarts**~

this is what I call "after wedding rave party" ... cccoooooooooooolllllllllll...!!!!

Everyone : gggriiiirrr, lucky we're brought to here, else it's so boring following the newly weds. LET'S KILL!!!!!

jae : Oh !! help! Heal my lougung plz Joo...

[=Angugu=]: er.. I guess we just stay up here darl?

jae: er.. Jump or not jump???

Nice place again, in Amatsu. This pic is really nice, i like it. ^^

I guess everyone is having a good time .. Look at ODA, he kept cracking berserk potion and awakening potion, man he's feeling "higher" than the newly weds! hahaha

Joo and her hubby also dressed sweetly. Hehe. I like this pic. Erm guys at the back, tepi sikit!!

Darl, with you, everywhere is a heaven.

Joo brought us to alot of places to take pics. Here it is a map in geffen. It's like a heaven eh?Everyone's nice to follow us to here. OH is that a mermaid?

My RO wedding day on 14/3/2005, 9pm. I'm very happy that my closes friend in the game, Joo came to the wedding ceremony. [=Angugu=] is my hubby in the game ^^ His char is a White Smith. We've been knowing each other for long. sweet ^^

.: No Life :.

I think.... I have no life. Not that I am complaining everything that I own now while some people wish for but just couldnt get. I have good living environment that I can't complain any further. But just, I think I miss out something in life. I tend to forget about my surrounding when I'm too focus onto something. A very simple example is that, I cant remember what my mom asked me to do when I'm thinking of a solution of a logical problem in project, but I answered her "yeah.". And it happens many times that I forgot to do what she asked me to, so of course, kena marah-lah lolz.

What happens after I submit my final year project? My entire life focus is in the project now, though I know there are 2 more projects awaiting in line. I guess I gotta balance back my life after I submit it. Know what? I have 2 boxes of puzzles that I'd left abandon, and I think I'm gonna complete them after I submit the project. I know I'm losing patience in everything I do and the people I meet. I need that back. I dont wanna be mean or cruel or..... cold. And I think I missed out the time I could spend with my parents. Lately I notice that my dad and mom are looking .... older and tired. My brother , well he's losing his patience from working pressure. And I think he's gonna learn to handle that after seeing the change in me(I hope). Besides, I think I'm losing something fun around my circle of friends.

Gotta do something about it. Wish me luck *blink*

.: Without you here, Oh how I'm missing you so.. :.

Having you as part of my life,
Has felt like such a breakthrough;
And so I just wanted you to know,
How much I really, trully miss you.

My many thoughts of you,
Sometimes happy, sometimes sad,
Always make me feel so special,
Because of the good times we've had.

I only wish that you could be
Here with me right now,
I'd magically transport you here,
if only I knew how...

Lovely poem .... I saw this via flowgo.com. So I shamelessly copied it down. Hehehe. Sweet isn't it?

.: That's my CNY, every year... :.

Hello everyone! Happy Chinese New Year. Sorry it's been quite sometime I've not been updating any entries into my blog :P Been buzy since the 1st day of CNY. I'm glad that I've done quite alot of work for my FYP before the CNY thus I could temporarily put it aside during CNY and now, it's time to start back.

Every year my CNY is the same --- everyone of my family is like been working 20 hours a day at the end of the day when we reach home. Exhausted, dirty, and the last thing we'd do is to go out again. TV or bed are our favourites at night because we've been visiting from house to house in an extremely hot day ( I wonder what happened, it's like an oven outside everyday of CNY! ) so I'd very much prefer to just ..... have a little peace of mind and body before I go to bed to rest and start again the routine the next day. BUT it's been fun. I met with relatives and cousins that I havent seen for months. Some changed alot, some are still the same ^^. OF course getting red packets is the most exciting thing during CNY (That's the MAIN THING Nyek nyek nyek!)

This year I've got a new place to go -- to visit my RO friend's house. The place we gathered is my guild master's house. I decided to drive that night because I know my bro is gonna get himself tipsy ( or drunk, whatever). I gotta mention that his mom makes ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS cookies. We played some game and chatted alot and we met with new members whose faces we've never seen. They are quite bold to get into my car, not afraid that I might drop them in the middle of KLANG highway wahahahah! Anywayz, it's been fun.

Got 3 gatherings to attend this weekend. 1st is my primary schoolmates, then Eric's house as he called for a gathering, and the last is my secondary schoolmates. Well, gotta do more work before I spend this 2 days without much progress.

Alrite, that's about my CNY... Lastnight my family worshiped "ti gong", the tradition my family carries out every 8th day of CNY. My neighbourhood was very buzy playing with fire crackers, the atmosphere was very nice, abit noisy though but that's what CNY is meant to be ain't it? hehe. Got onto bed around 2am.... tired. Hehe. And now I think the Chinese is anticipating the last day of CNY, which is the 15th day, Zap Goh Meh, also known as Oriental Valentine's Day. Lolz. Till then, Gong Xi Fa Chai everyone, have a great CNY :)

.: 脱掉 :.

12123 N 外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉 龟毛脱掉 脱掉
通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Fre Frer Frer

Hey Yoh 穿上保护色还以为自己有看头 想要有点搞头
怎么老是觉得很笨重 再也看不下去
别怪人口太多那是心事重重
空气污浊 有人太过臃肿

瞭了吧 就是想得太多 又卡住头
差点要本性流露 就不要ㄍ一ㄥ过头

七情六欲 仁义道德 谁不是天生就有
yo baby ya baby 全脱掉　
换一套　就地开窍

我们穿了太多烦恼 热到自己受不了
脾气总会莫名其妙 冒烟又傻笑
你辛苦 我辛苦
何必那么苦

yo baby ya baby 规矩太多一起脱掉 有搞头一起飙
浑身上下清爽畅凉快 活着多美好
你知道 你想要 那样才翘

This Aln't About Sex It's About Love
And If You Can Feel It Let Me Hear You Say

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na~
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na

外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉
龟毛脱掉 脱掉
通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Frer Frer Frer

有冲动 没行动 那就什么都白搞
没问题 干脆我们来分工合作
谁要点那把火 谁要火上加油
场子热了谁都不要躲 干脆假戏真做

跳进来搅和 给你机会放纵
拜托大家不要败再没事穿太多
123脱得精光锻炼身体有突破
yo baby I Want You (I Need You) I Want You I Need You

我们穿了太多烦恼 热到自己受不了
脾气总会莫名其妙 冒烟又傻笑
你辛苦 我辛苦
何必那么苦
Yo baby yo baby 规矩太多一起脱掉
有搞头一起飙 浑身上下清爽凉快
活着多美好 你知道 你想要 那样才翘

Ha I Don't Know About You But I'm Felling Good
And If You Can Feel It Too Just Show Me What You Got
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉 脱 掉
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na

外套脱掉 脱掉 外套脱掉
上衣脱掉 脱掉 上衣脱掉
面具脱掉 脱掉
龟毛脱掉 脱掉 通通脱掉 脱掉
Frer Frer Frer Frer

.: Shopping Shopping :.

Finally everything is settling down and what's left now is FYP ( gotta work on the networking after CNY). I wish I can finish it up 2 weeks before the submission so I can work on the documentation THOROUGHLY. I guess what they really emphasize on is the documentation. *pif* I hate writing....

I went shopping with my mom at Mid Valley yesterday. Not much of people that's what I like coz I dont need to spend time queuing up for fitting room! Went in couple shops but can't seem to get what I want --- nice to look at and reasonable price. IMPOSSIBLE! Perhaps my requirement is too high? Ended up I spent around RM200 for 3 pieces of clothes -- Padini slack, Voir skirt, GEB top. My mom's mouth went "O" shape when paying for those but erm... mom, I only shopping once in a while.. Hehehe when I work I'll buy many many nice clothes for you ya! Oh ya, I need to get new sandals and shoes.... kekeekekekek might go shopping again within these few days. I seldom got mood for shopping -- when I do it's really a necessary for me to get new clothes. Hehehe buying new clothes is something HAPPY, it'll make you HAPPY hahhaha! *stupid*

Tomorrow's Wendy's turn for her MIP. I hope she'll do it great. Last 2 days she was so panic and anxious. A few of us tried to give her a hand on working out the UML diagrams, which is like more than 60 diagrams? GOD BLESS! I spent the night at Zoe's place and then we went yumcha around 2++am. SOmething happened which was unexpected -- oh ya the joker was me, again. Somehow I got to make the table of friends laughed happily, and I think I spoiled my image abit? BUT HEY! I dont speak like that normally doesn't mean I dont know how to.... nyek nyek nyek! Good that I made you all happy ya?

Gotta clean up my study room later on. So I stop here. GONG XI FA CHAI everyone :) Enjoy the new year!

.: 浪子心声 :.

难分真与假 人面多险诈
几许有共享荣华 畔水滴不分差
无知井里蛙 徒望添声价
空得意目光如麻 谁料金屋变败瓦

命里有时终须有
命里无时莫强求

雷声风雨打 何用多惊怕
心公正白璧无瑕 行善积福最乐也
人比海里沙 无用多牵挂
君可见漫天落霞 名利息间似雾化

A very meaningful song sang by Sam Hui. For those who can read Chinese, stop doing what's on your hand for a while, take a look at these words and think about it. :)

.: Time for CNY cleaning!!! :.

Woosh~~~ Finally, assignments, test ... ALL OVER! *yippie* It's time for cleaning my room and CNY shopping heheheheheh SO happy! It's been long since my last shopping. Feel so excited about it. I just settled down from the 1st round of cleaning my room. I told myself today after class I must at least wipe off some of the dirt of my room, and so I did ! I not only wiped off the dirt, I cleaned the edge of the wall, I wiped whatever frames I got in my room, I cleaned up my magneted dolls which are so adorable to look at..... and gobble gobble gobble... Tomorrow I'm gonna tidy up my closet which is now a horrible, ugly, terrible mess !! Hehehe! And then.... nyek nyek nyek, shopping time!!! New tops, new pants, new skirt, new shoes/sandals wakakakakaka shop till I drop!

.: Blank Headed :.

Been writing a paper regarding professional issues particularly in the topic of Video Surveillance and Software Piracy. PHiew... so much to write, so many words to think of. I lost my straight head after I finished them. I even talked in a MSN chat window with a friend for so long then only I realized I'd been talking to a wrong person. *lolz* And even so, I dont know what I'm writing !

It's Daniel's turn for the midpoint meeting today. Hope he did it great.

.: A bit of jealousy spice things up? :.

Hmm ... when do you get jealous? Over something you can't get but people have it? Or.. over someone whom you utmostly care but she/he keeps babbling someone else in front of you? Or.... over some compliments you think you should have but they ain't just for you anyway? *giggle* Too much of jealousy do nothing good. In fact, too much of anything do nothing good. BUT! Maybe.... sometimes a bit of jealousy spice things up. Like.. it can pull 2 persons closer than ever? OR... it lets people know how much you care and that it means important to you. hehe...

I heard my babe Daniel told me about he's been molested. *WHOA!* Where? In the gym. When? I think lately. HOW? yeah that's the right question. I think gym nowadays are packed with gays???? But congrats Daniel for having such amazing charm to have a guy eyed on you. Is he handsome anyway? *LOL* I dont know if I'm permitted to tell you the details, I leave it for you to find out, he's available at his blog. Check it out. *hehehehe*

Alright, gotta continue with my work. TTYL! (Talk To Y'all Later) have a nice Saturday everyone * wink*

Current mood: Quite a relax one?
Current music: er.... MTVs on MTV

.: 我的心太乱 :.

夜里难以入睡
用什么可以麻醉
情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪
有些事你无法体会
卸下了防备孤独跟随
我想要一个自己的空间
能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想像的甜美
那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱
要一些空白
你若是明白
让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱
不敢再贪更多爱
想哭的我
却怎么哭也哭不出来

我的心太乱
要一些空白
老天在不在
忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱
害怕爱情的背叛
想哭的我
像是个迷路的小孩
迷路的小孩

.: 出卖 :.

谁想到是你
连自己都耻笑我
曾是好姊妹竟跟他数算我
假好心的交代过
你说他早想甩我
更说爱你竟比我多

* 就算情人多坏 亦惯了照捱
被战友战败 就似亲手给活埋
被你无情出卖 由细个到大
就算再伟大 仍恨你太像犹大
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 愿你们欠定我都好
甚么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你跟他喜好 我甚么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
绝没甚么羞耻之心真可安乐就做
我伴侣 我伴侣 抱着了我的知己
将我击倒 比掌掴更高

Repeat *
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 让你们欠定我都好
什么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你都不知道 我有冤不必报
我越受害越显得清高
你二人为隔夜仇内疚最好 别要认错乱说声早
你跟他喜好 我什么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
恨亦付出不少心机 只好出卖量度
我未到却做到 看着你与他怎么早晚不保
比宽恕更高

.: Hope it's not too late :.

Been working on my FYP since 2 weeks back. I would say the progress is so far so good. At least the desktop application is almost done. And what's left is the mobile application. I hate to start work but once I decided to really start working, it feels really nice to see there's result of my effort. I think I've over my scope, though. Well hell ya as long as it works nicely. Now what I'm worried about is the data communication between mobile device and desktop. Before this I'm also worried about how to write program in PDA but I'd solved this problem yesterday, with the help of my "si fu". Now I can write a simple interface for my mobile application. As there are many limitations in writing mobile application so the interface will be fairly simple. I guess next time I can write simple application and install it into my PDA. wahahaha! My own program!!! LOLz.

Working on my own project has caused me to lose grab on the other project... my friend is doing the work and I could hardly help coz I can't catch up with the coding now. Feel really sorry about that. But I'll do my best in documentation, hope I could make a bit of contribution...

Chinese New Year is coming.. "ang pow" time ... haha! I guess I can't enjoy to the fullest in this year's CNY coz I'm gonna worry about my FYP anyway.. >.<"! Nevertheless, I wish all to have a prosperous time during CNY, win "manyak-manyak" oh~~~ hehehee...

OH .. later I'll be going to Mid Valley for the RO Carnival and meet my brother there. See what's there to offer. I think there're gonna be lots of dolls... and maybe cheap reload cards. (hope so.. hehe). Guess I deserve a bit of getaway after all the hard work..(so sad... to shopping mall is a getaway??!?!?!) Have a nice weekend everyone. :)

Current mood: normal
Current music: 98.8 fm

.: My Confession :.

I have been blind
Unwilling
To see the true love
You're giving
I have ignored every blessing
I'm on my knees
Confessing...

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you
I thought I was strong without you
For so long
Nothing could move me
For so long
Nothing cound change me

Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

You are the air that I breathe
You are the ground beneath my feet
When did I stop believing?

.: If I Ain't Got You :.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

.: 我的错 :.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向，不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤, 学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好地爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心， 还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤，没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔经伤你如此， 不在放肆
为何总到失去才懂得难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守后
都是为我的错， 错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

.: It feels nice to develop something that works :.

It's been sometime since I last wrote anything. Been busy with my own stuffs since few days back. I fell, it felt lousy, panic, nervous, heavy .. so I took a piece of paper and a marker pen and I wrote for myself: "Jia u! (boat will be straight when comes to the bridge)!! gam ba de!!". And I sticked the paper on the wall right infront of me. My mom laughs at me, my bro said I'm crazy. But this own-consolation does work. I am self-encouraging. So I'm standing up again. I got an expert to guide me for doing my FYP and I really thank him thounsand times. And I thank the friend who introduced me this helper.

I start doing the parts which I'm good at. And so far they are progressing and I feel good about it. Although the consequences are I'm maybe falling sick now coz I'm feeling uncomfortable, it feels superb to see it running without errors. Guess I should go to bed early tonight for tomorrow's workload.

To my friends, thank you for your support. I will do my best, at least to the extend that I have no regret. *hehe* Gam ba de !!

2nd pic I took, found a better view. See the square in the middle? There's where the emperium is (a gold rock which decideds the castle belongs to whom if one can hit it). We won, again :)

The pic is taken after RO guild war ended. We lost the one we conquered previously but gained a new one at the last minute. nyek nyek nyek~~

.: The 1st joke I made in Year 2005 :.

Hmm.. so it happened when Daniel, Wendy and I were talking in the class. Daniel went back to hometown during holiday so he was telling us about the jokes he and his friends made back there. So he was talking about Clayton, who mistaken Tiger as the representative animal for Leo (as you all know, Leo is lion) when he was asked what's his horoscope. Here's the conversation:

Daniel: "Ey you know got once we asked about Clayton what's his horoscope, his horoscope is Leo but he said "Tiger" instead of Lion. Then me and Louise so blur and we laughed. Louise said "I'm the goat on the hill", and I said "I'm the fair goat in the household". "
Wendy & Jae: "hahahahahah, tiger...."
Daniel: "Yeah..silly"
Jae: "Hahaha then I'm the monkey on the tree"

Wendy & Daniel stunned for a while, looked at me one of a kind...

Jae: "what? Monkey is on the tree mah~~~" and I looked back at them wondering what's wrong..After a few secs...

Wendy:"Jae, we're talking about the horoscope here, what's up with the monkey?"
Jae: "OOPS!!!"

And there both of them laughed at me hysterically, I laughed at my blur-ness. What? Hey he was talking about TIGER and GOAT and they are 2 of the 12 lunar animals, what's wrong if I say MONKEY! Can't believe I fell for that. grrrr... LOLZ. I laughed till I cried. I really think if I dont have Wendy and Daniel, my APIIT life would be EXTREMELY boring. I hope they feel the same about me? *hahaha!* Yeah ... But I dont know why I'll always be the one (almost everytime) that creates jokes. Well, a good start for the year, I think. :)

Current mood: ready to be massively occupied
Current music: 98.8 fm on radio

The WOE on Saturday, 1st Jan 2005. We got a castle at last too. It was taken by others, but thanks to our powerful players, we got it back. nyek nyek nyek! ~*Companions*~ might suck, but it kicks butts!

The 2nd castle we conquered on the following WOE event on Wednesday... We got it in the very last minute. Haha! Lucky assses ..

The first WOE I attended using my own character and we won a castle. Nice. :) It's Christmas night.

.: 受了点伤 :.

My love 晚安
就别再为难 别管我会受伤
想开 体谅 我已经习惯
不然又能怎样
这个城市太会说谎
爱情只是昂贵的橱窗
沿路华丽灿烂 陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当
竟然以为你会不一样
但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷 虚构出的温暖
没理由能撑到天亮

前进 转弯 我跌跌撞撞
在这迷宫打转
死心 失望 会比较简单
却又心有不甘
这个城市太会伪装
爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后 却把灯忘了关
让梦作得太辉煌

以为能够留你在身旁
但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫好聚好散

别说你对我感到愧疚
别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走
请你不要安慰我

My love 晚安 别放在心上
我只受了点伤
只是受了点伤

.: Another long, cold night :.

Listening to "Shou Le Dian Shang", by Ah Sang. To those who wants to know about it, I posted it last week, just go to Archive or scroll down, you may see what the song's about. A special one introduced this song to me. For the first time I heard it, I was touched by its lyrics.... I'm amazed that it can actually make me cry over it. Just because the lyrics is too sad. And I started to wonder why a person like him would listen to this type of song....

Done a small part of coding .... lazy to on the ORACLE service now so I guess the testing I'll leave it for tomorrow. My progress on FYP is okay. I'm trying to speed it up. Although there are consequences like I'll be very tired and might fall sick, in fact I am sick now... Got a serious throat infection that for every saliva I swallow it hurt like a knife cutting through my throat. I couldnt stand the pain anymore thus I seeked for doctor's help. I'm getting better, the medicines work quite well. I'll try not to do last-minute work, though I feel I'm lagging now. So gotta work double, maybe triple sometimes. I might have to sacrifice some fun time during CNY. Well it's only for a year... if I can spare more time for the project I can really enjoy every minute after I submit it.

Suddenly feel abit lonely ... but well I got enough things for me to worry.. Why bother the loneliness eh?

Current mood: bored
Current music: "So Much For My Happy Ending" -- Avril Lavigne