.: Merry merry Christmas, Lonely lonely Christmas? :.

This song has been in my head on the day of Christmas eve. It's by Eason Chan, right?

I spent the eve with family. We will celebrate Christmas eve together every year. Been telling them to spare the night for dining out. So they did. We went to Mid Valley, was thinking to dine at the Chillies, but when we reached there, we gotta wait for an hour coz the queue was just too long. Never mind, thought of trying something new, so we went to San Francisco Steak House. The surrounding is really not bad. We couldn't escape from the queue, though. Even if you had reserved table, you still gotta wait for your turn. I was kinda syiok looking at those couples who thought they own the world with reservation name, pif, Queue please mister. The food is fine, the environment is nice. We enjoyed it together.

And I spent my eve alone at home, sitting at my desk, working on the translation jobs that I got (so to earn couple extra bucks) while listening to my favourite music. Didnt feel bad or whatsoever, I prefer a silent night for the eve, and to the count down. I sent out wishes to friends, and I got the most valuable one at 12midnight sharp. And know what, from the party pack, I decorate my doggie doll with a raindeer hairband and party mask, and I put on Santa hat myself. Haha trying to have some feel of Christmas (though we are not Christians). Maybe when I'm affordable next time, I will buy a Christmas Tree and decorate it for Christmas. Hehe. Whoever that went out to rave the night, had fun? Hehe Bet you all did. *smile*

And on Christmas, nothing's really special, except I had a good game playing RO in the evening. It's War Of Emperium and seemed like everyone didnt really celebrate Christmas(no life?!?! lolz), a lot of guild members were online and so we went for the war. Nice game! Had a fun time. Hopefully there's more fun coming in!

New year is coming !! Time flies eh... so fast it's 2005 soon(getting' a year elder, again! >.<"") I wish everyone a Happy 2005, may you fulfill all your new year resolution, and hope next year is a good year! CHEERS!!

All the ladies !!!! hehehe..
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Koh Sing and I. She drove me to the hotel that night. Hehe, She's a great friend !
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All my ex-collegues.. Hehe Guys from left:Ling Howe, Kenneth, Jin Jun; Girls from left:Hui Cher, me, Koh Sing, Mei Lan(bride's maid)
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The 2nd gown of the night.. .. nice nice ..
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This is the bride ... BEAUTIFUL leh !!!!!
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in my friend, Jennifer & Shaun's wedding night, I helped out at the entrance hehe, beside me is Sook Fei, Jenn's friend.
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.: Confession :.

Alright, promise will write a confession so here I begin. ( I hope I can be honest for all the things I said lolz)

~**My Love... that faded**~

Started from the beginning when I saved and saved money for a trip to Australia. It was my first oversea trip that I went myself. Excited, anxious, happy(coz I got to see the one I missed for months).. and I love the new experiences I had while staying there for a month. Sydney, a beautiful city and the places I'd been to -- natural beauty. Something is gained something is lost. I lost the love I had when I'm back. Maybe I dont love him enough. Maybe I'd changed. Distance relationship is never easy, but maybe like I said, I dont love him enough. So I cant bare with the difficulties. I have a very bad habit --- wouldn't say it's bad or good, maybe in different context, it's bad, but it's also good that I can do it: I'm very good in letting something's gone, be gone. I'm sorry for the hurts I've created for him. I wish he'll have a happier life and lately I heard that he's been doing good in both study and business. All the best to him.

~**My Friends... that hooked with cable wire**~

Been clinged myself to an online game since March. ( wow, so it's been 9 months I've been playing it ). I got to know friends who are funny, friendly, and we even become real life friends. I'm glad I can have friends like them. Dont underestimate their knowledge in the game, I got lots to learn from them. Haha. Why I love the game so much? It's just a game anyway. Well, it's online, so there are many players. Players play their characters in the game, directly reflecting their own attitude and characteristics. This is what I learn. There are scammers, not only scamming uber items or zenies(money in the game), but also maybe scamming hearts in the game. But, I'm glad the friends I know are all truthful, genuine, and worth to be called friends. And friends who are in Brunei, wow God knows if not because of the game would I ever know anyone from Brunei? The chance is thin, yeap. I'm lucky enough to know them, and may our friendship continues to blossom.

~**My Friends ... that are surrounding me**~

What can I say about the friends I have. Always I think I'm lucky. I dont have MANY friends but the ones I have, they love me. I try my best not to disappoint any friends, but if I did and I wasn't been told, I'm sincerely sorry, please forgive me. I wouldn't want to hurt you, but if I did, I didn't mean it. I'd talked craps, I'd shown faces, I'd shown temper, I'm glad you all are still there when I need y'all. I very wish to withhold you all until I breathe my last breath. To all my friends, Thank you for the friendship. I'll cherish them. And hope you all are happy to know me. *hugz*

~**My study ... my responsiblity**~

Next year is my last year of studying. Soon I'll be graduating with a degree. I must confess that I'm a lazy bone. I know what I should do, and I know I can do better if I'm more hardworking. I guess the new year wish should enclose with this -- hardworking. This year so far, I've been doing okay in studies. Scored with a satisfying result, made my parents proud. The feeling is great. Always have the bad habit of studying in the last minute. Should have changed this attitude. *hehe, say is always the easiest*

~**My Life ... should I hope for a better one?**~

Life is a treasure -- be alive when you ARE alive. My headshot. Been saying Life is Beautiful, so live to the fullest. I'm doing my very best for that. Treasure everyday, but it seems like I take everyday for granted. I'm lucky enough to have what I have now. I should be grateful. I have what I love, I am at where I'm most protected. There is really nothing more to complain. I should plan my future, though. Right now it's all plain. I don't know where to head to. After finish studying, it's time to really learn what life is, I guess. Responsibilities come. And pressure comes with responsibilities. Running away or avoiding it will do nothing better I think. So face it, bold to carry it, and resolve it, and I'll have more to complain at that time, haha!

wait a minute, am I doing confession for all this while? Er.. please tell me if this ain't a piece of confession. I just write what's on my mind. And now I don't know how to close it with a good ending. *stupid!* I guess .... just say bye?

~**Bye**~

.: Flu....... :.

Yeah it's still with me. Better I guess. I think the Vitamin C Plus that I took really does help? The day I knew I had flu, I had the hardest time sleeping at night. The next day, I took Vitamin C Plus and yeah it helped. Feel much better. Thanks zoe, Joo and chao learn for your concern. :)

Current music: Rain drops
Current mood: bored

And... tada ~~~!!! This is after. Cute? Hehehe I'm in pink dress. Nice !!!
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This is ... before I change job to High Priestess. CrimsonLiang was beside me hehehe. Looks cool in the cowboy hat eh?
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Christmas in Geffen city. Nice, Big Christmas tree. hehe Merry Christmas everyone !!
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.: I hate flu :.

.... got flu. I guess that explains why I couldnt sleep soundly last night. I think I'm gonna fall asleep in the class later on... *sigh* Hate it !!! >.< !!

And my throat is acting up !!! >.< !!! argh !!! herbal tea... need herbal tea....

OH! another thing, my friend Haw Feng recommended me a link : Tokyoplastic Go visit !!! It's cool !!!! Very impressive and it's amazing !!! Thanks feng *heehee*

.: Two souls and one thought, two hearts and one pulse. The sweetest joy, the wildest woe is love :.

I quoted the words from the wedding invitation card. Sweet isn't it ? Congratulations to the newly weds - Jennifer and Sheon. 12 Dec 2004 is their wedding day. I'm honored to be selected to be the bride's "ji mui", so I went over to the bride's house to help out yesterday morning. The good time was set it in a way that they have to reach to the groom's house before 9am, so the groom and his brothers came to the bride's house at 7.30am. Early eh? So you got an idea what time I gotta wake up. You bet, 6++am ! And I didnt take anything when I was there although Jenn's mom prepared some breakfast for us.

Of course the groom and brothers couldn't enter the house and get the bride so easily. They were tricked. We as sisters had actually planned games to trick the guys, however, sadly to say, the active ones were just a few, I had no idea why some could give ideas and made themselves seem so sporting and active but at the end of the day, they just sat there looking as if this is none of their business. I played, but the guys were too many and their voice were much bigger than us! So, well, didnt play much. Jenn was looking fabulous in her white gown. So elegant. And Sheon, wahaha yeah he was handsome in his suit. So they got up the car after tea & angpow session. I followed an ex-colleague's car to the groom's house in Sentul. We arrived there before 9am, so.. cool, we didnt miss the good time.

So it's groom's family side for the tea & angpow session now. It was my first time visiting their new house. It's cozy, very comfortable and windy, at 7th-floor condo unit. After all that, there was a catered brunch for us at 10++am so okay.. my first bites of the day. Then, chit-chatted with the ex-colleagues about their speech on the wedding dinner and I went home with my mom after that. We arrived home around 12 noon and I just couldn't stand anymore, I dived into my bed and just slept for 3 hours straight down. Haha!

Okay, after a sleep I tried to get some bites and hung out for a while before I prepared again for the wedding dinner. So showered, dressed up, made up and there I was ready for the night. My friend Koh Sing came to pick me up around 6.30pm and we headed to Pearl Point ballroom. Was given task for guests registration and angpow collection. So we didnt get to sit down at the table until at least 90% of the guests arrived. The dinner started around 8.15pm. There was a simple ceremony before the dinner began. First, there were 4 flower girls and boys walking to the stage on the isle. They were just so cute and lovely. The bride's maids were right behind them. Beautiful ladies! Then we could see the bride was accompanied by her father, walking to the stage while the groom and bestman were waiting on the stage. She was passed to the groom by her father. Touching scene and it got more touching when all these were accompanied with romantic music. The coupld exchanged vows after that, and the dinner began. Koh Sing and I had to leave the table after the first dish to count the angpow money. So we didnt get to eat much.

The dinner was empty if there wasn't any game for the couple. Haha so the colleagues suggested that we all do a toast ( the ever famous "yum seng" session) and requested the couple to French Kiss when it starts "yum" and only stop when we shouted "seng"! What do you think, of course it was the longest "yum" ever ! Mic was passed from 1 to another to continue the "yum". hahaha! It was pretty fun. The couple were sporting.

Okay, the dinner ended around 10 ++? or 11 ++? I couldn't remember. I took lots of pics with my ex-colleagues and was happy to see them again. Koh Sing sent me home after that. So well, since my eating schedule was all messed up yesterday so I had gastric when I took my first sip of Coke last night after I went back to the table after angpow counting. It already happened so no matter what I took later, it only added on to the pain. But I did eat. I just slept after I went home coz was tired, didnt care much about the pain.

A long entry, yup. Hope didnt make your eyes pain hahaha ! I'm better today. A new week again, have a nice week guys, n gals. *smile*

Current mood: .....feel okay
Current music: erm... ads on Hitz.fm

.: Preparation for a Confession? :.

Seeing my pal, Derrick wrote a summary of year 2004 made me have a feeling of making one too, well, will take time to make one before 2005. Glad to read his entry. It's true Derrick, you lose something and you gain something, this logic never changes. And when we grow, there are things we need to sacrifice for its loss, compromise for its balance or work harder to get the fruit. I'm glad you experienced things and you learned from them. ;) Way to go, buddy! And of course, though I might not be the best person for you to talk to sometimes, I'm always here if you wanna talk anything with me. Hehe.

And well, talking about things that is unforgettable before 2005, I bit my tongue 2 days back, it bleeded, it hurt like ....... I couldnt even scream the pain out and it's still a bit pain now! *pif*! But soon it'll be alright hehe.

.: I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas :.

I love Christmas since small, though I'm not a Christian.

Santa Claus (main point for then), Christmas Tree (lots of presents underneath the tree--2nd top reason wahahahha), cookies (Ginger-man is CUTE!!), songs (It just gives you the feel of .... Christmas *stupid*), and .... kiss underneath the mistletoe... (hmm.. romantic)

I still remember my parents used to pretend to be Santa Claus... NO JOKE! I got a brand new Barbie doll as my Xmas present when I was small. They even told my bro and I to hang pillow case ( no HUGE and RED socks , that's why.. and PILLOW CASE is BIG ENOUGH. *haha!*) at our bed. We were even looking out to the window to see if we could see Santa flying by on his sleigh and deers and wondering, how could Santa come in while we had fenced our window and we didn't even have a chimney!!! And what do you know, in the next morning, whualah~~ presents in the pillow case. And there goes we hopped and yelled and broke into my parent's room, jumping on their bed telling them "There is Santa Claus!!! There is Santa Claus ! See what I've got? How did he know I like Barbie?? How did he come in?!" And my folks were just smiling. ( These 2 kids are just too easy to cheat...... )

I think that's something nice, don't you think? A little bit of something to make your kids happy all day, of course you can't stop them from telling their friends what did Santa give them. And all the "oooooo!!! aaaaaa!!!" yeah , yeah... Maybe next time I'll do the same to my kids too. And there goes the song "I saw mummy kissing Santa Claus" ... *lolz*

What you wish for Christmas? I always love to spend it with family and love one. Well it could be a wild crazy night out with friends on Christmas Eve.. but always, I will call and wish my folks Merry Christmas when it's 12 midnight. If it's not with friends, it'd be a warm dinner with my family and I would buy them little Christmas gifts, and listen to Christmas songs at home till I'm ready for bed. Nice. Cozy. And then......... ready for the new year celebration. Hehe.

If you love someone, use this chance, tell or show them how much you love them. Make it special. Make it worth a life time to remember.

my reborn pic !! and this is ..... AFTER !! bwahahahaha !!!  

My reborn pic !! mwahahaha This is BEFORE ....  

Daniel and I .. he always so like to take photo, but he is photogenic ain't he? hehe 

Zoe, me and SoonFeei in cafeteria, co-incidently we were wearing red top.. haha Feels liks CNY!! 

This is my babe, Zoe and I, taken in the class 

.: Something to Proud of :.

my Mama n' Papa, I'm glad I can make you feel proud !!!! (n' myself, keke)

Didn't expect to see my result like that.. Hmm... *GRRRRIIINNNNNN*

Got two 1stClass and one 2nd Upper.. =D

Congratz to fellow coursemates too to view the result today, no matter how well or how bad you did, You'd Done Your Best ( and that's worth to congrat!!!)

.: Just another day :.

Yesterday went to karaoke with Zoe, Wendy and Wendy's friend, Chai Yun. Four of us sang our lungs out for 3 hours... Felt not enough eventhough voice was a bit sore. Haha. Anywayz it was great, been locked in the working room for so long and couldn't vent any frustration and pressure, yesterday was the time.

After that as the HDD of my old baby is condemn I need to get a new HDD for her. So, went over LowYat to buy a new 80GB HDD. Went home happily and installed it after shower. Well, only then I found out she wasn't merely have long term memory sickness; her "brain system" is damaged as well ( suspect is Motherboard died). *man.....!* And I was lucky enough to have a friend to guide me even only on MSN, of how to test everything and tell him what was the findings. He was really helpful. Thousand apologies to Daniel coz I kept asking him questions and telling him my frustration and making him feel bad coz I know he was having a hard time to try to comfort me !!! *lolz* But thanks for the song, babe.

Okay.. well, gotta take that for a repair. And I REALLY need a haircut. So, today's just gonna be another day... Oh yeah, there is some homework I need to do. Ciaoz guys n' girls.

Current mood: a bit down
Current music: Nina Sky - Move Your Body.... on Hitz.fm

.: That's it?? :.

So... so much of crying like a child about my midpoint, it's officially ended at 10.30am today. 30 minutes of presentation to determine the marks I deserve out of 20marks. Fair?? Guess what, I still couldn't get to meet with my assesor. He is on MC today. Replacing him is a Malay lady ( a lecturer too ) .. er.. I forgot to look at her tag so I have no idea who she is. But she seems nice and friendly. She gave me comments --- I think they concluded to be that my academic research is not strong enough.. Hmm... more hard work need to be done from now on.

Not feeling very satisfied but ... well let's face the truth, I did it in the past 5 days. If I can pass it I should be thankful. Not to say I only started to do my work in the 5 days I had, just I didnt have enough before this, so well the continuos hard work of 5 days, cant really get you far I guess. Fair enough. Congratz to Zoe, KingKo and myself, we passed it. Now, all the best to Wendy, Daniel, Ted, YinChew, SoonFeei, Christene, ChaoLearn, Yoong, and Shivani.

Feeling sleepy.. and .... a bit relief. The nerv I had was still with me eventhough I walked out from Presentation Room just now. So we went for breakfast in cafeteria with Zoe and KingKo, chatted a little bit, and then Zoe and I took off. She didnt sleep for the night before and she's gonna skip the class today. Me, went back home to do the housechores as mom's not in... and now... hmm... Empty headed.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." -- Mouline Rouge

Current mood: light
Current music: Numb/Encore -- LP feat. Jay Z .. on Hitz.fm