.: 浪子心声 :.

难分真与假 人面多险诈
几许有共享荣华 畔水滴不分差
无知井里蛙 徒望添声价
空得意目光如麻 谁料金屋变败瓦

命里有时终须有
命里无时莫强求

雷声风雨打 何用多惊怕
心公正白璧无瑕 行善积福最乐也
人比海里沙 无用多牵挂
君可见漫天落霞 名利息间似雾化

A very meaningful song sang by Sam Hui. For those who can read Chinese, stop doing what's on your hand for a while, take a look at these words and think about it. :)

.: Time for CNY cleaning!!! :.

Woosh~~~ Finally, assignments, test ... ALL OVER! *yippie* It's time for cleaning my room and CNY shopping heheheheheh SO happy! It's been long since my last shopping. Feel so excited about it. I just settled down from the 1st round of cleaning my room. I told myself today after class I must at least wipe off some of the dirt of my room, and so I did ! I not only wiped off the dirt, I cleaned the edge of the wall, I wiped whatever frames I got in my room, I cleaned up my magneted dolls which are so adorable to look at..... and gobble gobble gobble... Tomorrow I'm gonna tidy up my closet which is now a horrible, ugly, terrible mess !! Hehehe! And then.... nyek nyek nyek, shopping time!!! New tops, new pants, new skirt, new shoes/sandals wakakakakaka shop till I drop!

.: Blank Headed :.

Been writing a paper regarding professional issues particularly in the topic of Video Surveillance and Software Piracy. PHiew... so much to write, so many words to think of. I lost my straight head after I finished them. I even talked in a MSN chat window with a friend for so long then only I realized I'd been talking to a wrong person. *lolz* And even so, I dont know what I'm writing !

It's Daniel's turn for the midpoint meeting today. Hope he did it great.

.: A bit of jealousy spice things up? :.

Hmm ... when do you get jealous? Over something you can't get but people have it? Or.. over someone whom you utmostly care but she/he keeps babbling someone else in front of you? Or.... over some compliments you think you should have but they ain't just for you anyway? *giggle* Too much of jealousy do nothing good. In fact, too much of anything do nothing good. BUT! Maybe.... sometimes a bit of jealousy spice things up. Like.. it can pull 2 persons closer than ever? OR... it lets people know how much you care and that it means important to you. hehe...

I heard my babe Daniel told me about he's been molested. *WHOA!* Where? In the gym. When? I think lately. HOW? yeah that's the right question. I think gym nowadays are packed with gays???? But congrats Daniel for having such amazing charm to have a guy eyed on you. Is he handsome anyway? *LOL* I dont know if I'm permitted to tell you the details, I leave it for you to find out, he's available at his blog. Check it out. *hehehehe*

Alright, gotta continue with my work. TTYL! (Talk To Y'all Later) have a nice Saturday everyone * wink*

Current mood: Quite a relax one?
Current music: er.... MTVs on MTV

.: 我的心太乱 :.

夜里难以入睡
用什么可以麻醉
情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪
有些事你无法体会
卸下了防备孤独跟随
我想要一个自己的空间
能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想像的甜美
那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱
要一些空白
你若是明白
让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱
不敢再贪更多爱
想哭的我
却怎么哭也哭不出来

我的心太乱
要一些空白
老天在不在
忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱
害怕爱情的背叛
想哭的我
像是个迷路的小孩
迷路的小孩

.: 出卖 :.

谁想到是你
连自己都耻笑我
曾是好姊妹竟跟他数算我
假好心的交代过
你说他早想甩我
更说爱你竟比我多

* 就算情人多坏 亦惯了照捱
被战友战败 就似亲手给活埋
被你无情出卖 由细个到大
就算再伟大 仍恨你太像犹大
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 愿你们欠定我都好
甚么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你跟他喜好 我甚么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
绝没甚么羞耻之心真可安乐就做
我伴侣 我伴侣 抱着了我的知己
将我击倒 比掌掴更高

Repeat *
其实发誓留下隔夜仇未报也好 让你们欠定我都好
什么不好抱 你誓跟他拥抱
友谊情人全不保
要是来日你二人没有屋租 大概共我亦同居到
你都不知道 我有冤不必报
我越受害越显得清高
你二人为隔夜仇内疚最好 别要认错乱说声早
你跟他喜好 我什么都知道
我自愿做伴娘更高
恨亦付出不少心机 只好出卖量度
我未到却做到 看着你与他怎么早晚不保
比宽恕更高

.: Hope it's not too late :.

Been working on my FYP since 2 weeks back. I would say the progress is so far so good. At least the desktop application is almost done. And what's left is the mobile application. I hate to start work but once I decided to really start working, it feels really nice to see there's result of my effort. I think I've over my scope, though. Well hell ya as long as it works nicely. Now what I'm worried about is the data communication between mobile device and desktop. Before this I'm also worried about how to write program in PDA but I'd solved this problem yesterday, with the help of my "si fu". Now I can write a simple interface for my mobile application. As there are many limitations in writing mobile application so the interface will be fairly simple. I guess next time I can write simple application and install it into my PDA. wahahaha! My own program!!! LOLz.

Working on my own project has caused me to lose grab on the other project... my friend is doing the work and I could hardly help coz I can't catch up with the coding now. Feel really sorry about that. But I'll do my best in documentation, hope I could make a bit of contribution...

Chinese New Year is coming.. "ang pow" time ... haha! I guess I can't enjoy to the fullest in this year's CNY coz I'm gonna worry about my FYP anyway.. >.<"! Nevertheless, I wish all to have a prosperous time during CNY, win "manyak-manyak" oh~~~ hehehee...

OH .. later I'll be going to Mid Valley for the RO Carnival and meet my brother there. See what's there to offer. I think there're gonna be lots of dolls... and maybe cheap reload cards. (hope so.. hehe). Guess I deserve a bit of getaway after all the hard work..(so sad... to shopping mall is a getaway??!?!?!) Have a nice weekend everyone. :)

Current mood: normal
Current music: 98.8 fm

.: My Confession :.

I have been blind
Unwilling
To see the true love
You're giving
I have ignored every blessing
I'm on my knees
Confessing...

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you
I thought I was strong without you
For so long
Nothing could move me
For so long
Nothing cound change me

Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

You are the air that I breathe
You are the ground beneath my feet
When did I stop believing?

.: If I Ain't Got You :.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

.: 我的错 :.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向，不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤, 学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好地爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心， 还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤，没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔经伤你如此， 不在放肆
为何总到失去才懂得难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守后
都是为我的错， 错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

.: It feels nice to develop something that works :.

It's been sometime since I last wrote anything. Been busy with my own stuffs since few days back. I fell, it felt lousy, panic, nervous, heavy .. so I took a piece of paper and a marker pen and I wrote for myself: "Jia u! (boat will be straight when comes to the bridge)!! gam ba de!!". And I sticked the paper on the wall right infront of me. My mom laughs at me, my bro said I'm crazy. But this own-consolation does work. I am self-encouraging. So I'm standing up again. I got an expert to guide me for doing my FYP and I really thank him thounsand times. And I thank the friend who introduced me this helper.

I start doing the parts which I'm good at. And so far they are progressing and I feel good about it. Although the consequences are I'm maybe falling sick now coz I'm feeling uncomfortable, it feels superb to see it running without errors. Guess I should go to bed early tonight for tomorrow's workload.

To my friends, thank you for your support. I will do my best, at least to the extend that I have no regret. *hehe* Gam ba de !!

2nd pic I took, found a better view. See the square in the middle? There's where the emperium is (a gold rock which decideds the castle belongs to whom if one can hit it). We won, again :)

The pic is taken after RO guild war ended. We lost the one we conquered previously but gained a new one at the last minute. nyek nyek nyek~~

.: The 1st joke I made in Year 2005 :.

Hmm.. so it happened when Daniel, Wendy and I were talking in the class. Daniel went back to hometown during holiday so he was telling us about the jokes he and his friends made back there. So he was talking about Clayton, who mistaken Tiger as the representative animal for Leo (as you all know, Leo is lion) when he was asked what's his horoscope. Here's the conversation:

Daniel: "Ey you know got once we asked about Clayton what's his horoscope, his horoscope is Leo but he said "Tiger" instead of Lion. Then me and Louise so blur and we laughed. Louise said "I'm the goat on the hill", and I said "I'm the fair goat in the household". "
Wendy & Jae: "hahahahahah, tiger...."
Daniel: "Yeah..silly"
Jae: "Hahaha then I'm the monkey on the tree"

Wendy & Daniel stunned for a while, looked at me one of a kind...

Jae: "what? Monkey is on the tree mah~~~" and I looked back at them wondering what's wrong..After a few secs...

Wendy:"Jae, we're talking about the horoscope here, what's up with the monkey?"
Jae: "OOPS!!!"

And there both of them laughed at me hysterically, I laughed at my blur-ness. What? Hey he was talking about TIGER and GOAT and they are 2 of the 12 lunar animals, what's wrong if I say MONKEY! Can't believe I fell for that. grrrr... LOLZ. I laughed till I cried. I really think if I dont have Wendy and Daniel, my APIIT life would be EXTREMELY boring. I hope they feel the same about me? *hahaha!* Yeah ... But I dont know why I'll always be the one (almost everytime) that creates jokes. Well, a good start for the year, I think. :)

Current mood: ready to be massively occupied
Current music: 98.8 fm on radio

The WOE on Saturday, 1st Jan 2005. We got a castle at last too. It was taken by others, but thanks to our powerful players, we got it back. nyek nyek nyek! ~*Companions*~ might suck, but it kicks butts!

The 2nd castle we conquered on the following WOE event on Wednesday... We got it in the very last minute. Haha! Lucky assses ..

The first WOE I attended using my own character and we won a castle. Nice. :) It's Christmas night.

.: 受了点伤 :.

My love 晚安
就别再为难 别管我会受伤
想开 体谅 我已经习惯
不然又能怎样
这个城市太会说谎
爱情只是昂贵的橱窗
沿路华丽灿烂 陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当
竟然以为你会不一样
但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷 虚构出的温暖
没理由能撑到天亮

前进 转弯 我跌跌撞撞
在这迷宫打转
死心 失望 会比较简单
却又心有不甘
这个城市太会伪装
爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后 却把灯忘了关
让梦作得太辉煌

以为能够留你在身旁
但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫好聚好散

别说你对我感到愧疚
别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走
请你不要安慰我

My love 晚安 别放在心上
我只受了点伤
只是受了点伤

.: Another long, cold night :.

Listening to "Shou Le Dian Shang", by Ah Sang. To those who wants to know about it, I posted it last week, just go to Archive or scroll down, you may see what the song's about. A special one introduced this song to me. For the first time I heard it, I was touched by its lyrics.... I'm amazed that it can actually make me cry over it. Just because the lyrics is too sad. And I started to wonder why a person like him would listen to this type of song....

Done a small part of coding .... lazy to on the ORACLE service now so I guess the testing I'll leave it for tomorrow. My progress on FYP is okay. I'm trying to speed it up. Although there are consequences like I'll be very tired and might fall sick, in fact I am sick now... Got a serious throat infection that for every saliva I swallow it hurt like a knife cutting through my throat. I couldnt stand the pain anymore thus I seeked for doctor's help. I'm getting better, the medicines work quite well. I'll try not to do last-minute work, though I feel I'm lagging now. So gotta work double, maybe triple sometimes. I might have to sacrifice some fun time during CNY. Well it's only for a year... if I can spare more time for the project I can really enjoy every minute after I submit it.

Suddenly feel abit lonely ... but well I got enough things for me to worry.. Why bother the loneliness eh?

Current mood: bored
Current music: "So Much For My Happy Ending" -- Avril Lavigne